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Some people say that one should be optimistic and focus on the positive things that can come from negative events.
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I guess things like that are easier said than done. After all, how can someone not in any predicament be able to quantify the feeling of thinking positive when everything around him points the opposite way?
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I used ot be like that. Or rather i always took effort to look at things positively, if not, then fully ignore the negative aspects entirely.
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Apparently, ignoring negativity doesn’t really make it go away, because in the back of your mind those negative thoughts are incubating waiting for the right time too burst and infect you with greater force than when it was first conceptualized.
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Negative thoughts have a way of staying benign and then one day becoming active, just when you thought you were safe.
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Maybe, being pessimistic is better. At least, you won’t have the additional pain of failure, because in your heart, you already failed.
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Wasak ka na noon pa, kung alam mo nang di ka na mabubuo ulit, bakit mo pa pipiliting pagdikit-dikitin and sarili mo diba?
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Mas maganda siguro kung tinaggap mo na, sa gayon, mas madali kang makaka-move-on patungo sa mga bagay na mas importante.

nothing cool really happened today. I just got a bunch of laptop brochures. Apparently, my laptop scavenging isn’t just wishful thinking… yay!

Well this is my birthday week… yay!
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Ooooh, I dunno if I mentioned last Feb 14 that the day after that was my birthday… or did I?
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Anyway, I really felt like going loner on my birthday so true to my mood, I never showed my face in the tambayan.. a weird thing because I don’t usually stay away from the tambayan for more than 20 hours.
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Well maybe because I had this procedure done that made my face look like somebody sprayed mud all over it. But I guess it looks a bit better now that the scars have healed and all that jazz.
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Well just in time for the UP fair last Friday, which is also the one I asked Jules to go with me to, then cancelled at the last minute. Sorry dear, the call of booze was much louder and more appealing to me than staying up late watching JJ’s and fretting the moment when one of them might actually jump towards me.
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Anyway, the next day, I had to go to Jay’s house, he’s my classmate at MS1 and bunk at his place together with 2 others to finish our MS1 project, which is a diorama of the Guimaras oil spill. And during the time I was there I again constructed another expressionw hich my three groupmates will identify me with (the first was pro-active) and that is the expression all that jazz (a replacement for etc.).
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Well we were supposed to do a project that had relations to each of our fields, namely psychology, political science and chemical engineering. Yeah apparently, political science and psychology had lots to do with oil spills and such.
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Anyway we’re almost finished with only the finishing touches left. Althouhg I must say we wouldn’t have had to go overnight if only all of us were productive. hehehe. Of course it comes with the whole enchlada that doing group work comes with a bit of horseplay and this time it was youtube madness, a bit of tuksuhan because of Jay and Lady, courtesy of me and Tristan, as well as hangovers (ehem) and puyat modes that had to be remedied by a good dose of Z’s.
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We ended up painting neon colored houses to represent the coastal villages, and a not so scale model of my proposed oil recovery plant (the Chem eng’g part) with, of course, neon colors.
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I forgot to take a picture but I really did good in painting the island green and doing a bit of shading and blending. (heheh self- praise)
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So we ended up watching youtube for the rest of the morning on Sunday, while Lady did most of the work on the diorama (she slept during the night while we painted and stuff). And just before going home, I had an unplanned lunch/merienda with Tere and we looked for cameras at cyberzone so Tere could take memorable pictures during her graduation this march (congrats!) and she promised me a starbucks tumbler… yaay!
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Anyway I went home to see that my sister bought me a webcam and a mic-headset combo ( although I already have a mic, two actually) which my mom immediately asked me to use so she could talk to my sister (who is in Japan.
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So during the talk blah blah blah I discovered that I owned a big chunk of land. Nyahahah I’m filthy rich! Joke-ness! Anyway my sister was looking for a house, so she could finally y’know separate herself from the family and my mo offered to sell her the land. Then we later found out that all the land titles were already in our names so that when it was time to inherit them, we won’t be burned by the inheritance tax.
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Apparently, being the youngest gave me an advantage. Because my sisters had to share the smaller land in Bulacan, while I had the 3x larger one in Cavite all to myself., Nyahahah just cuz I was born late.
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Anyway, the sales talk and my mom saying that the cash my sister would pay her would be refunded once she (my mom) dies and the convincing that looking for a place to live in Manila is gonna cost a helluva lot more than 1Million the conversation moved towards me buying a laptop.
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Layo noh?
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Anyway since my birthday just finished, I fianlly picked up the courage to go thick faced on my sister and ask her to buy me a laptop. But since she’s gonna buy a house, then the phrase "not a chance" would be most appropriate. However, I previously had a deal with my mom that if I was able to sell this PC, this new one I am currently using, then she’d buy me a laptop.
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Well I guess my mom gets overwhelmed with all the technology, that or she’s just very stingy.
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Buuuut! My sister’s husband was looking in the market for a desktop PC, and whaddaya know, I was able to sell this one, to him! nyahahah. And tomorrow I shall go laptop window shopping. Nyahahah! My dream finally came true… sniff.
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And here Iw as thinking that this was the worst February of my life.
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Nyahahha… And all that Jazz

It is once again that day when everyone gets to be all sweet and mushy. Creepy thing is, people allow them to!
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Hehe bitter.
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And since I am still painfully single, I’ll do what I do every valentines…
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Shop!
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Nyahahah. Walking around the mall has that calming and cooling effect. (Aircon?)
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Actually, I already did that yesterday.
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Right now, I’m concentrating on writing my novel.
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I just hate that I woke up early this morning just to remember that I don’t have 135 lab today. Sheesh.
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Anyway at least I have time to update this blog.
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I was going to add a few entries yesterday, but walking around SM North Edsa took all the energy out of me. So after a quick snack last night, I went straight to sleep.
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Anyway it’s good that I got enough sleep last night, at least I won’t be squirming in agony at the gym later today, not to mention I’ll be needing the extra hours sleep because I’ll surely be staying up late tonight to get some ES 11 lovin’.
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The darned exam is on my Birthday!
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But I guess it’s better to have just one exam tomorrow instead of the three exams previously scheduled that confounded day.
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I still wish I could do some more shopping later today… Hehehe to release those Valentine blues.
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And to end this post, here’s a pretty good pic of the Eng’g lawn. I dunno but I really like this pic and I jus t wanna share. View this photo
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I took it while walking outside the Chemical Engineering Department Faculty Room.

Unfortunately it is that time of the month again, when I am less than bearable, highly moody, most hyperactive, hypersensitive, very depressive,  unpredictable, quiet, contagious, dangerous, imbalanced, unreasonable and most of all evil.
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well maybe not the last one.
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But yes people, I am undergoing PMS.
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If you don’t know what it is ask someone else ‘cuz I’m not in the mood.
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Anyway, I feel very very very tired recently and God knows what’s happening. My mom says its from the lack of sleep. I say it’s from the hormones and the array of obnoxious people that crossed my Maunday path.
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I’m not writing any names or stating any events because I think the reason why those people seem so obnoxious today is the fact that my hormones are active once more.
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So I’m writing a few stuff to those people just to release some tension.
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I’m quite sure that these sentiments will be gone by the end of the week.
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1. YOu are such a user. You only approach people when you need something from them. And when it is us who need something from you you shrug us off. I hope it doesn’t come to a point when I ahve to tell you this to your face.
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2. Ang plastik mo dude. If you hate me then say it, di yung parang friends friends pa tau. Grabeh OROCAN!
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3. Stop patronizing me!
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4. Buti na lang gwapo ka, kung di… rwqe$#%dsalkj!!!

I dunno I guess it’s time I used my membership there. Thank God I still remember the password.
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I also wanna know how many people read my blog.
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although it would be better to know who, but I guess I should be content with how many.
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I went to sleep last night in the midst of an onslaught of on and off headaches on the left side of my brain. Fortunately, despite the pain, I was able to sleep, although not as deeply as I wanted.
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I haven’t been having enough rest recently. My body got used to getting 6 hours of sleep last January, especially because there wasn’t really much to do aside from read read and read. Unfortunately, the readings are getting thicker and thicker as the love month approaches it’s Zenith on February 14th and will culminate to two exams on my birthday the 15th.
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I also have an exam this Monday and another set for next Tuesday and Thursday. Unfortunately, these are days when I go to the gym. SO I dunno if it’s going to affect my gym drive.
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Anyway, thinking too much about exams, not to mention the other stuff I have to worry about (my life doesn’t revolve around studies) makes my tolerance for pain decrease, which is in turn a bad thing because there seems to be an increase instance of pain during these times of stress.
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Fortunately, there is badminton. yes badminton, the stress reliever and the frustration venter that happens almost everyday at the Yakal Lawn a.k.a. the ALCHEMES lawn.
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It is where alchemists vent their anger on an innocent shuttlecock whose only sin was to be the few grams of plastic from the millions of liters of petrochemicals processed in the Philippines to be turned into a recreational product.
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Well I like badminton because of that. And aside from venting anger, it is also a good source of endorphins for the otherwise academically slave driven students of our org.
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*not to self bring your own badminton racket on monday.
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that’s all for now

Well it’s the weekend and I’m hardly feeling the restful atmosphere. Yes it’s cold to the point when I’d want to bathe in the noon sun. I actually looked up the PAGASA website to see if the cold weather would persist long enough so I could use my org jacket in the wee hours of the morning when it’s freezing cold and I’m still shivering under two layers of blankets. (gasp)
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Unfortunately it says the cold weather will persist until the 2nd week of February and just in time for the Lover’s season. It just goes to show that no matter how you try to escape it, the season follows you and blows it’s message on you… literally, and those winds are very cold.
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Anyway I’m on rest period because I went to the gym yesterday, did a few misinformed leg raises until I corrected my posture (no wonder it’s not working) and Pilates ball crunches which I sooo enjoy and some other stuff I don’t want to remember.
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Anyway after the hurried gym session I quickly went to the tambs to join the sports clinic that the LSR peeps organized.
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And I just wanna say it was great! WEll not as great as the Anilao field trip but great nonetheless! It started slow for me because I didn’t join the tennis crowd and the basketball crowd is full of sweaty icky boys (I really don’t like sweaty contact sports). But I finally got a badminton partner in Bart. Even though half of the time we were laughing about how the bird would get entrained in the wind or else the almost invisible thread that was hanging above our playing field.
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Eventually (meaning after the pancit lunch which Johan’s mom cooked) I joined the tennis hype and what do you know I actually enjoyed it! It was my favorite of all the events. Even though I think if all of us would be given grades for our tennis prowess I’d be given a 5, I still enjoyed it. At least, by the time I gave up the racket, I was already able to hit the ball over the net, although not always into the other court.
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I was also able to swim in the frigid pool! Hehehe and do a bit of basketball shooting, (I actually got in 1 ball!!) and a quick round of volleyball where I was never able to actually volley.
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Yeah I think technically I did every sport and overdid tennis.
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Which is why my right arm is sort of crying right now. Anyway I won’t have to do anything strenuous tomorrow, at least nothing physically strenuous. I’m due for a debate on whether or not Rizal is a bayani or not tomorrow. Apparently hero and bayani are two very different things. Or so I read.
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Anyway I had to got o UP today to talk to my 11 groupmates about our plan of action for tomorrow’s debate, unfortunately, only three were present. Great huh?
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Well we basically got it figured out… I think.
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Well not really. Hehehe I guess we’ll just wing it tomorrow.
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Although I am researching for other stuff regarding Rizal’s apparent lack of qualities for being hailed as a Bayani. I’m on the negative side of the debate you see.
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And while researching, I just happened to procrastinate and drop by mugglenet and whaddaya know?! Harry Potter 7 is coming out this JULY 21!!! WAAAAA Joy of Joys! There is still hope! Nyahahaha.
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And it just happens to be a few weeks after the fifth Potter movie release! Whaaaaa! July is Officially Potter month, not to mention my Dad’s month of birth so I’ll just have to convince him to give himself a copy of the book like he did with Half Blood Prince!
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I am soooo excited nyahahaha!

Imagine preparing the best dessert, then whipping up a delightful salad, and then for the main course, you put the best combination of spices together in one pot, heating it to just the right temperature, and then putting the best combination of vegetables and what-not in your pot, and then for the final/main ingredient, you put a healthy serving of manure.
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gross isn’t it?
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Truth is, no matter how you dress something up, how good the surroundings are, what’s gross is gross and that will never change.
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It’s kind of like war, no matter how good the intention, people will die no matter what.
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Or maybe rape. Even if the woman is your wife or even if you love her dearly, there is no excuse for rape.
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Murder is another. For revenge, for someone you love, cold blooded murder is evil. Take note that is cold blooded murder, self defense is different.
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So you see, no matter how I look at it.

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Even with all the bells and whistles.

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Even in a perfect setting

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I really can’t imagine us together…
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sorry