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I’m currently listening to the song Lightyears by eraserheads its from their Christmas Album, Fruitcake.

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My sister used to be a very big fan of Eraserheads, she’d go to their concerts, their autograph signings etc. And I guess the fandom rubbed off on me. Now I’m downloading songs everywhere I can. I’m trying to have them all. Especially those that I love.

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Uhm what was this entry for again?

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Yeah on the song. The title is a quote from the song. I never really realized this song’s meaning for me.

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"If I only had a rocketship to fly, I’d be right there in a minute. But it doesn’t really matter where you are, however near is still so far when you’re lightyears away… from me."

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I hate these moments. I only have time to have these moments when I have nothing else to do. Fortunately, all of the things I’ve had to do, I’ve done before Monday. Now all that’s left are Three exams, na open book naman so concepts lang talaga ang kelangan kong aralin and one final na kelangang karirin. (*Heave!)

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October 13 - Che 122

October 14 - ChE 134

October 17 - ChE 133

October 18 - Chem 153

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After that I’m home free!

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But of course how can I forget PURGED!, which has to have a one page issue on October 15, and Reactor, which needs to be aproved before October 20, before classes officially end.

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I think I have enough time to actually have at least 6 hours of sleep.

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And maybe a 15 minutes for the senti churvas.

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Meron pala ako ulet na thing that you want to tell someone that you can’t tell in person:

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20. Mejo na-insulto/naoffend ako sa sinabi mo noon. Ganun pala kababa tingin mo saken. Pero I’m not mad, nagulat lang, after all hindi naman unfounded yung sinabi mo. Medjo, na-hurt lang ako.

There’s an old Filipino proverb, "Lokohin mo na ang lasing, wag lang ang bagong gising." I have an addition to that, "Lokohin mo na ang lasing, wag lang ang bagong gising, pero lalong lalong wag ang wala pang tulog!"

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I’m currently sleepless in Caloocan, and it’s really sad because its currently bed weather here. Unfortunately, my coffee trip last night, courtesy of our new American Home coffee maker and my mom’s inexhaustible stores of Starbucks coffee grounds, made me sleepless.

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I only slept three hours last night and that was forced sleep. I went to bed at around 5am and woke up at around 8. From then I was pacing my room back and forth until 10:30 am when I finally decided i won’t be able to sleep.

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So I did my laundry, its now hanging, and I’m now finishing my report for ChE 134, which thank God would culminate tommorow.

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Tommorow’s, the hell in my hell week, so I am saying sorry in advance to the people that I might shout at tommorow because of the stress.

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So far I’m making good time in preparation for tommorow,I’m already done with my STS paper, I’m almost finished with my report for 134, and after I finally feel the urge to sleep, I’ll start studying for the STS exam tommorow.

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The only problem is, I can’t keep off the coffee. The coffee maker’s been running all day and night, hehehe. The brew is just to darned good! I just hope the fix lasts long enough to get me through tommorow. 

There is no way to describe my disappointment. Although sabi nga nila you can’t have too much of a good thing.

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Its like being hit by a two decker bus, and then being run over by a tank.. Ang then you live to be a cripple.

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Apparently, my Pc isn’t running on Intel Core 2 Duo. Core 2 Duo is the latest line of processors that intel has developed and it boasts the highest speeds and efficiencies. It’s even advertised on animax for God’s sake. Unfortunately, my new processor is only Pentium D. Its also a dual chip processor, but as the people in one forum I visited, it’s shit compared to Core 2.

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sadness.

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tears.

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Pero don’t get me wrong, mabilis pa din naman sya eh.

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Kaso sayang, 1,000 pesos lang ang diperensya. Pentium D = 10,000 pesos, Core 2 -11,000.

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sad talaga

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enks kasi yung tatay ko eh.

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grrr

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pero medjo ok lang

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astig pa din naman sa bilis

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pero grr pa din

Tearjerky Songs

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Para Sa Masa – Eraserheads

Minsan – Eraserheads

Broken – Seether feat. Amy Lee

Photograph – Nickelback

How You Remind Me – Nickelback

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These are six of my most favorite songs of all time. Kinda grunge but Para Sa Masa just made me cry a while a go so I remembered.

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The Simple Things

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There are things, no matter how simple that some people tend to appreciate more than others. For me, there are a lot of simple things that may seem small to others but has a very big effect on me, my mood, and my predisposition at a certain moment. I just thought that it’s now time to acknowledge them.

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1. Pag may nakikipaglaro sa akin ng cards. – If you haven’t noticed yet, I thoroughly enjoy playing cards.

2. Yung pagbigay ni kuya Jaypee ng Scrabble board sakin – That was my first scrabble board. ^_^

3. Yung mga thank you’s – No matter how l arge or small the favor I did for somebody, I always enjoy the thank you moments, it makes me feel like I helped a lot.

4. The extra 5-30 minutes. –These may come as extra minutes after an exam has supposedly finished, extra minutes to think about your answer when the teacher suddenly calls you for recitation, extra minutes that your groupmates will wait if you’re late.

5. Chocolate – Jules introduced me to Meiji black chocolate and after that, I’ve been so addicted. I’m a pig when I eat chocolate, hehehe. 6. Alone time – I love alone time, when I can reflect about my day or what’s been happening without being laughed at because my face is all blank.

7. When I am appreciated – The thanks, the the I like your comments yeah I really like those. Actually there are times when I’d like to approach perfect strangers and comment on how good they look. Hehehe

8. Rainbows – I only ever see rainbows on either the NLEX or SLEX, so when I do see one, it usually means an adventure.

9. The good morning texts. – Yeah its cheesy but I like em more than the quotes.

10. Musta texts – I like em best ‘cuz they’re openings for conversation.

11. Word of encouragement – yeah I love these, makes you feel like you have someone’s support even if its not so true, hehehe.

12. Coffee – This is my lifeblood, my comfort food, my companion, my lover, my friend and my confidant; who is always warm no matter what. (kasi it doesn’t have time to cool down, heheh)

13. Shadow – The name of my pillow, I got it from the Eraserheads song Shadow, from the album fruitcake.

14. PVP Liner bus, Cher Green Bus and the new JMK bus – my favorite buses, which are spacious and are relatively new so the air-conditioning is still very efficient. 15. Mga driver na mabilismagdrive – Di ako nalelate eh hehehe tas makaakpag-breakfast pa ako sa Mcdo.

16. Mcdo Breakfast – Libre kasi ang coffee refill.

17. ginataang manok, ginataang gata, ginataang niyog – nlabo diba? From Overdrive, E-heads din.

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I really get nostalgic when I hear the e-heads songs. Nakakamiss yung mga days when those songs were actually jologs.

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So after the churva things I decided to add something else. I actually wrote the things above yesterday, but since I couldn’t connect to the net then, I uploaded it today.

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Happy Mode!

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I just couldn’t resist to tell the world na naka INTEL CORE 2 DUO na AKOOO!!1 Nyahahah Happy days are finally back! Ang bilis bilis ng Karma talaga. Kaya napaka saya ko ngayon. Sabog pero masaya nonetheless.

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Saka bumili na ng coffee maker sa wakas ang parents ko, so magagamit ko na yung starbucks ground coffee na matagal ko nang buksan at kahit pakuluan ko na lang! nyahahhaha.

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And if that wasn’t enough, natapos namin kanina yung ChE 134 report! yayness! SAka syempre medjo madali-dali yung exam sa 122 kanina! Hapiness talaga! Sana magtuloytuloy. ^_^

It’s amzing how I could make time to write this entry when tons of other work awit me when Ilog off this account. Some people say keeping a journal is  a wste of time, some people sy it’s therpeutic. Well I say it’s recreational.

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Some people have computer gmes, card collections, movie mrthons, I have my journal.

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Even if it is senseless stuff, or simple whinings, its nice to get the load off my back. They sy tht by putting something in writiing, you are in effect telling it to someone, and by doing that you ease your own burdens.

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Chorva naman!

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Haai, I’ve nothing else to write, but the urge to write is way too strong for me to ignore. So that’s that for now.

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Although I’ve recovered from yesterday’s Chem 153 bout, I don’t think it’s time yet to rest. Unfortunately, there is still a lot to do nd dallying isn’t really suggested. Though it appears that I won’t have to do much after next week, coz most of my subjects do not require final exams (yayness!). Well it’s a plus.

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I’m also very happy because I bought myself two packs of the rare Mentos Plus! Berry Mix, which is one confection that I REFUSE to share! Hehehe yeah I’m selfish. ^_^

I wrote this entry on Monday, October 2, 2006. Unfortunately, I wsn’t able to post it because since I taught him how to surf the net, my dad’s been hogging the PC.

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Who would’ve thought that an earthly pardoz would imbibe in me the belief that 13 years of Christian education never did? Educated in a Catholic institution, ran by nuns wasn’t really a good thing for me becasue it made me more of a skeptic rather than religious. Heaven and hell were just merely ideas of rewards after  productive (or non-productive) life, and are ideas that I often consider irrelevant when making decisions. But the presence of hell, I experienced fter milenyo.

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I Knew tht after the four day rest the true stormswould come, nd I knew there will be more than one. Hell week has come, and not a minute late. From the moment I stepped on the bus to go to UP, Monday morning. I already felt the gravity of my predicaments.

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STS, although alwys a lightening experience was hardly fun today. the meeting after class with my groupmates was a fresh reminder that there are things, major things left unfinished.

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But having lunch with Stephen afterwards proved to be very comforting. I don’t know why, but intelligent and heartfelt conversations always do that to me.

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ChE 134, kept me awake like never before. Although our report wasn’t scheduled until Monday, the way questions were asked, the few mistakes that I sw myself, made me even more nervous about the task that lies ahead. We’ve not yet finished the clculations, and I’m afraid that we won’t be able to do it in time. So Just like STS, Satan seemed to have an army of coal filled trucks to refill the fiery furnace of hell that he so kindly set-up on earth for me.

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Have you ever had the feeling that you just want to fall off the face of the Earth, or maybe even faint at least? Tht’s exactly wht I felt after 134, sheer hopelessness. And that’s just a Monday. I just hope that the suceeding days would leave me enough braincells to actually cry for joy after it finishes.

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Unfortunately, life isn’t tht kind, it takes from you when you are most in need. Well I’m the candy with a baby in the famous saying, and my last candy was justs tolen after I realized that Reactor needed to publish. But I must say that Carlo’s task is much harder than mine. So maybe that’s a plus.

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This part, I wrote today

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Yesterday was Tuesday, and so my hell first half of October continues. First was Chem 153. Although I’ve done much improvement since my shameful summer experience, I must say that this subject still gives me the shivers. Later today would be my exam for this subject, and I am deathly hoping that I get a passing grade.

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Remembering Chem 153, I’ve now decided to cut this entry here. Hehehe I need to study. Maybe I’ll continue this when I have more time.