Isa nanamang walang silbing entry
Wala lang, namimiss ko yung daily entries ko from a few weeks before, it seems I have writer’s block pag masaya ako. Well you can’t have everything nga daw diba. Pag depressed magaling magsulat, pag masaya di marunong mag english, nyahahaha ang hirap tuloy pumili, depressed pero kumikita* or masaya pero broke. Haay anghirap
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* Itong star na to sa taas nung kumikita na word sa paragraph sa taas, ieexplain ko kung baket ako kumikita. Rumaraket po kasi ako. (sa mga di nakakalam) ang raket ko ay online SEO writing, at mejo keri naman ang kita, for a student that is. Eh pag masaya ako mas feel ko magliwaliw kaysa magsulat ng articles, hehehe kaya ito, wala munang raket, ang saya saya ko kasi.
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ewan ko pero the smallest things make me smile lately. I admit na I had a depression stint these past few weeks, especially yung week n daily ako gumagawa ng entry, pero fortunately, I got over that phase and I’m back and as energetic as ever. Although that period of time changed a lot in me, I learned a lot from it to. I learned to prioritize, and to slow down.
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Doon ko narealize na I shouldn’t try to do everything, I have co-workers, friends, family, orgmates, whom I can depend on do do things just as good as I can or maybe even better. I kinda have this problem about not trusting other people to do my work, so I end up doing all the work on my own.
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Na feel ko nga na napaka hypocritical nung nukmber 4 message ko sa isang person dun sa isa ko pang entry (click here to read that entry) about giving work to other people instead of taking it all for yourself, narealize ko na ganun din pala ako. Siguro I just lack trust in other people. ganyan kasi daw pag nadisappoint ka na ng paulit-ulit, angkakaroon ka na ng defense mechanism and nagbubuild ka na ng walls around yourself.
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Enough about self reflection.
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It’s finally hell period, I can’t really say week because my hell period doesn’t last a week, it’s more like, hell half month, or whatever, because starting this week until the last dayof classes eh medjo kelangang todo karir ang studies. Althoughsa lamat at tapos na ang STS report namin (sa wakas!) although kahit ako yung nagedit di ko pa din sya nagustuhan. As always , alam kong kaya kong i-improve yon, pero sabi nga naman ni dianne, di naman pedeng 100% ako sa STS kundi babagsak ako sa majors.
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In fairness tama yung sinabi ni Jules na namaximize ko yung GE na most-hated ng mga tao. At least kahit na nakakapagod, enjoy naman. Inf airness, ito lang ang nagiisang group ko na nakapaginuman kami nyahahaha.
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Speaking of inuman, namimiss ko na yun. KAsi unnlike some people I know (ehem) I have find it hard to find time for booze. Although gusto ko, hehehe mahirap kasi magpaalam ng gabi ka uuwi tas lango ka pag-uwi. Haaay, sana yung mga magbibirthday (ehem ehem) magpainom naman jan! Or kahit yung tapos na magbirthday, nayahahah.
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Looking forward to Sem Break
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Hay konti na lang, after ng Sem break makakapagpahinga na din ako. Makakatulog ng 8 hours or maybe more a day, mababasa yung mga books na gusto ko basahin. (humanda ka The Alchemist at the Devil Wears Prada, I’ma comin’!) Ang hirap kasi maghanap ng time para magkaroon ng recreational reading, ang lagi ko na lang katabi ay si Foust at at si Smith, minsan si Van Ness or si Beer. Haay. Sana next sem di na ganito kahectic, nawawalan na ako ng gimik life. Heheheh
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Ayun, angsaya, bihira akong magkaentry ng ganito, sana lagi na lang ganito entries ko…. Walang sense. hehehe
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Ciao at salamat sa lahat ng nagbabasa!
