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     WAAAAA mukha na kong yagit!

     I’ve been trying to repair my printer but it just won’t spew out ink, the stupid thing. The head’s clear ’cause there’s waste ink coming out of the tube where the waste ink goes. (wahehehe I dunno what its called) I’m sweaty, my hand is multicolored due to handling different ink cartridges and reloading them with this stupid non-working head cleaning solution.

          What else is there to whine about, let’s see. I haven’t started on my socio 10 report because frankly, I don’t know where to start.

          I can’t format my whole hard disk ’cause I still haven’t bought cds.

          I can’t play mp3s cause I already deleted my mp3 in the hard drive and they’re in a  cd.

          I’m roasting in the heat.

          I’ve no new assignments from my editor.

          Well if ther’re thing to whine about, there should be things to be thankful about:

          There are lots of Ice int he ref so even if I’m just drinking water, it has ice in it. (YES!)

          Nakita ko na yung favorite kong screwdriver at nabuksan ko na yung printer para mas madaling ayusin. And nabuksan ko din yung pc para kalikutin yung RAM.

          Gumagana na yung isa ko pang cd drive.

          Pumayag na yung mama kong ibili ako ng flash drive kahit meron na kong mp3 player na sabog.

          Nakadownload ako ng batibot mp3 although wala pa akong sineskwela,bayani at hiraya manawari.

           madali akong nakapagregister sa Unli kagabi

     Wala na kong maisip. Hehehe tapos na ang break time gawa ulit.

     Finally I get to write another entry. Frankly, this summer, 24 hours a day just isn’t enough anymore. What free time I have I usually spend sleeping, which is about 2-5 hours a day. no wonder coffee has no effect anymore.

     Anyway, my computer broke down, which is kinda normal considering I acquired the blaster worm from I don’t know where. And just when I was having the longest breakdown free streak ever since my parents bought this damned PC. It almost lasted a whole year without breaking down, well unfortunately, it kinda had to.

     So I was backing up my hard drive, which was about 30 GIGABYTES! SO far I’ve used roughly 30 cd’s and I’m not done yet coz I ran out of CD’s to use. So I’m gonna have to buy some tommorow or maybe on monday and resume my cd writing rest time.

     Well while backing up my hard drive and contemplating just how come I acquired so many electronic stuff. I came to writing a rough catalog of cds, which contained what and which cd’s I have to throw out.

     And while browsing my 10 cd mp3 collection, I found this old Mariah carey song that I really like way back in first year highschool. I used it as a theme song for my profile, its called breakdown. This song led me to Bone Thugz ‘n Harmony, and eventually to liking rap and hating pop for the most part of my highschool days. Liking rap then led me to liking Linkin Park, whose vocalist, MIKE SHINODA is my oh so favorite celebrity of all time, who raps. (konek ba?)

     Anyway, back to breakdown, there are these lines that I really like:

          I guess I’m trying to be nonchalant about it

          I’m going through extremes to prove I’m fine without you

          And in reality I’m slowly losing my mind

          Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I’m dying inside

          Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly

          ’cause I don’t want to reveal the fact that I’m suffering

          So I wear my disguise till I go home at night

          Turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry

     Basically it’s about denial. It’s a love song and it technically doesn’t apply but I really get what she’s trying to say here. I’m sure everyone has had that time when they had to smile in front of society and just hide their fear and pain. Well It doesn’t have to be always that way.

     Gosh now I feel depressed.

     So to avoid feeling too depressed and eventually breaking down before I sleep (hehe) I remembered why I wanted to write an entry in the first place. I’ve wanted to voice or rather pen out these thoughts for so long, but I just didn’t have the time.

     So I’ve come to the conclusion, that some people are just simply purely naturally, unchangeably EVIL. They, the ones who go out of their way to make everybody else’s life miserable. I don’t know why they keep on doing what they do, it’s like God didn’t grant them a brain, or maybe they were brainwashed.

     The first time I meet someone and get a bad impression from say, the way that she talks or looks, I always give someone the benefit of the doubt. Which since I’ve started doing it, has lessened the number opf people that essentially pisses me off. If I don’t like her at first sight, I look at her logically, maybe she’s just haging with the wrong crowd, may she’s just trying to prove herself, maybe she’s just innately nakakainis in my point of view, maybe she’s just simply dumb, those previous phrases I can contemplate, but obnoxious without reason, that I can’t let go.

     I mean you go out of your way to be geniunely kind and friendly and the next thing you know there’s a big rambo knife sticking out your back. Not just some ordinary knives, this is the knife that gets pushed in by one person and then poked at by that person’s friends so that the "stabee’s" agony is about 200% more than it really should have been. I mean instead of pulling it out, they prefer to drive it in.

     So now I ask, are those the people that you call intellectuals? Intelligent maybe, but intellectual, I doubt.

     Galit ako sa plastik yun lang yon. Although I do have my plastic times, sabi nga nila galit ang magnanakaw sa kapwa magnanakaw. Well if I’m a thief, then the people I’m talking about are the Thieves guild, a group pretending to help fellow thieves but are really just stealing what the thieves stole in the first place.

     There I finally wrote it down. And my windows update is almost done so, I guess this is it for now. Ciao and thanks for reading it.

          -I actually gave this entry a once over to proofread it. Amazing huh? Tell me if I missed any errors. thanks

     A fine stream of depressing events has been bombarding me this past week. It seems karma works with increased gusto these days. Sheeesh. The worst thing happened today, I can’t believe he’d break my heart like that. I wouldn’t have believed it if I didn’t see it for myself. The stupid moron.

     GrrrrRRRR!

     Bakeeeet!

     I was watching MTV today and there it was…

     MIKE SHINODA with fort minor! It sounded so much like pop/hip-hop! Eeeeewwww! I can’t believe he’d do that. WAAAAAA. I guess it’s now time to take down the LinkinPark posters.

     Of all the genres to join, he had to go with RAP! Why can’t he go to rock/rap/alternative like before? It was such a turn-off. The only thing lacking was the bling bling. I swera, If he starts wearing the bling, I am going to BURN all me Linkin Park Posters! Grrrr!

     Then he grew a mustache! How could he! He looks like a pale rapper. Waaaaa I hate it.

     Hehehe, as if naman may magagawa ako. Pero eewww talaga. As in todo rap yung song, parang busta rhymes lang or R-kelly or whatever. Naku if he starts sounding like Nelly, I don’t know what I’ll do!

     Heheeh yun lang!

     Truth is, I wish everything was as easy as what I say. I’ve dished out know-it all advices since high school, and wven if its coming out of my own mouth, even if It’s the only logical and rational thing to do, something irrational deep inside my stupid brain tells me not to. Yeah, Irv’s right, 7 people is a lot. 7 people all say the same thing, and I was stupid enough to ignore it. Funny thing is, even with that said, I’m still not going to take that step. I’m not very brave, and contrary to what people might think of me, I don’t like taking risks, I like things to be under my control, I’m an unseen control freak.

     So here I am telling myself once again, that I am going to ignore this until I’m too wasted to keep it to myself any longer. Let us all hope that that day doesn’t come.

UP ALCHEMES Final Rites/Sem-ender

     Ayun FR nung monday, syempre swimming nanaman, and although sumakit ang aking buong katawan nung wednesday morning, I must say this na-enjoy ko ang FR. Well nung FR ko kasi, syempre ako yung pinagtritripan at ang liit nung pool. this time, mejo naaccomodate naman kami nung pool sa Villa Malinao, Pansol, although mukha nang wastewater yung tubig nung umaga at malabo na.

     Badtrip, kasi may exam kami ng ChE 132 nung araw din na yun, kaya mga 7pm na ako nakarating sa Pansol. Di ko tuloy napanuod yung trustwalk at iba pang pinagawa sa mga apps na ngayo’y mems na.

     Fun lalo yung ginawa naming parang washing machine yung pool, when we all formed this gigantic circle and started walking, well in circles, it sorta formed a vortex, kind of like in a washing machine. Wala kasing magawa eh, ayaw naman nilang magsisiran ng coins.

     Nung medjo bored na kami, pinagtripan namin yung mga new mems. Not in a bad way, we just called them into our circle, secretive like, and raised our hands and shouted, yay! as a welcome. Sayang diko napicturan, syempre ayokong mabasa ang digicam.

     Nung late na late na at wala nang magawa umahon na ko, inom ng konti, at nung nagkakaamats na eh nagrejoin sa pool. Natuto ako magdive galing sa crouching position, tumalon sa pool without sinking your head at magtumbling into the pool, all courtesy of Louie.

     Afterwards, nung pago dna pagod na, at may pila na sa mga cr, eh nagbanlaw na at nagbihis. After which eh nagsiksikan kaming tatlo ni Jervik at AMki dun sa tent ni Jervik. DI kami makatulog kasi tawa lang kami ng tawa. We eventually went to sleep at around 6am. The rest was short-lived though, kasi nagising ako ng mga 7am para lumipat ng pwesto, naarawan na ko eh. Mga 8am bumangon na kami para magbreakfast.

     Syempre tambay muna kasi hanggang 12 noon ang rent sa pool, at which point nagcount down pa kami befor e12 noon bago mag ayos ng gamit at umalis. Hehehe. But that wasn’t before we had our very firsts et of Org pictures witht he new mems.

     As for saya rating, ok lang, I can’t say todo enjoy ako kasi syempre may patches of boredom pa din. Pwede na siguro, masyado lang siguro mataas expectations ko for a Sem-ender na mem na ko. Or is it because of the lack of slides? Namimiss ko na ang Splash Island, sana pumunta kami ulit this summer. (di konek noh?)

     Yung ibang pics inupload ko dito, dami kasi masyado, try kong hanapan ng paguuploadan kasi di kaya ng aking hamak na dial-up eh. Click nyo na lang uyng Photo album dun sa kanan —> or click on this Sem-ender summer 2006

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ACP-2003 Reunion Swimming

     Well it wasn’t much of a reunion kasi hindi naman lahat ng officers andun, medjo yung circle lang namin. At kamusta naman ang kawalan ni sir Caro and aming beloved commandant na forever na lang drawing. I remember na angaya sya ng swimming sa Pansol last year na hindi naman natuloy. At kahit na siya nanaman ang may pakana nitong outing na ito, hayun drawing nanaman.

     Anyway, sabi nga Laco time, laigng 1 hour late. Kaya ayun, usapang 5am, eh 6:30 nakaalis. At dahil sa wala kami talagang planong puntahan, we decided na maghanap sa Bulacan. Kaso nung asa NLEX na kami, narealize namin na magkaibang Sta. Maria pala ang tinutukoy ng isa’t isa, kaso too late na, nasa Pampanga na kami.

     Comedic siguro kung wala ako dun, pero pagexit namin dunsa kung saan man yun eh, di namin alam kung saan pupunta. We eventually decided to go to Arayat, kasi nga maraming resorts dun. Di naman namin naisip na pagkalayo-layo nung place na yun. Naka pitong tanong ata kami sa mga tao bago namin narating ang Arayat NAtional Park. At pagkapasok namin para makita ang pool, napakalaki nga nito, ngunit, walang ibang features… haaay.

    At that moment, sabi ko sige na nga ok na to, buti na lang maaarate (peace!) yung mga kasama ko, kungdi nastuck kami dun sa taeng place na yun. WAhehehe sakin kasi ok na. Ngunit dahil majority nga ayaw, naghanap pa kami ng iba. Dito namin nadiscover ang Magic Jade REsort. Napakaenthusiastic pa nung Manang na pinagtanungan namin. Hehehe maganda daw dun etc. etc, although medjo nagdoubt din kami sa maganda, kasi nga lahat na lang ng tao sabi maganda dito etc etc.

     Speaking of maganda, may natutunan kaming lesson, sabin ga ni Allan, di na daw sya magtitiwala sa mga tao dun kasi lahat na lang maganda. Hehehe, yung unang pinuntahan namin maganda sila ng maganda tae naman pala. haaaay.

     So dun kami sa Magic Jade at naexperience ko ang 7 feet na pool. Ang saya saya!. Maganda naman yung place kaso ang lau nung cottage namin. Good thing kahit iniwan namin yung gamit namin, di naman kami nawalan.

     Ayun nagkiller-killer kami sa pool, nagsisiran, nagemote emot si bryan, nagbaraha sa pool, at nang-okray ng mga JJ. (jumping Jologs) Parang ritual na samin ang mangokray, kasi naman kasi, mag torrid daw ba sa pool, or mag swimming ng naka-bling-bling at nakashades? Haaay. Parang wala talagang common sense ang ibang pinoy.

     Medjo napagtripan pa namin si Bryan kasi ayaw lumangoy ng topless, makikita daw ang chest hair nya.

     All in all, although nawala-wala kami at naka 1,500 kami sa gas masaya naman kasi ako nung DEcember 2004 ko pa sila huling nakita. MAsaya sana kung andun si Sir CAro, kasi sakanya dapat yung gastos ng cottage, 700 din yun. Nung umuwi kami, nagvideoke pa sila kila Aya, wahehehe di na ko pede gabi na eh.

     Paguwi sa bahay, syempre sleeping beauty ulit, and here I am, medjo masakit pa din ang katawan. In fairness ngayun ko lang naexperience ang 2 sets ng swimming in one week. Nakakapgod pala, lalo na sa bulsa, hayun wala na kong savings. Hehehe. Di bale masaya naman.

     Sana talaga mag Spalsh Island na kami, para kumpleto na, may swimming na ko with college friends, with highschool friends and with family,tapos nun, kumpelto na summer ko.

     Tinginin nyo na lang pics dun sa kanan —> sa ilalim ng picture kong maganda ay links sa aking photo album. or click onthis ACP summer 2006 pics

     When I was in fourth grade, I remember our class being asked by my teacher, Ms. Domingo, (forgot her first name) to write an essay of what we would probably be doing ten years from then. Well, Ma’am, here it is. And sad to say, nothing that I wrote down on that paper came true. Although I don’t have the actual copy to prove it, I quite remember writing that ten years from fourth grade (I was 10 at 4th grade, I’m 20 now) I would probably be studying either medicine or Computer Engineering. But looky here, I’m studying chemical Engineering.

     I also predicted having a boyfriend, which should be normal at my age, but I think my life is the triple point of abnormal, normal and paranormal. (may multo ba ito?) No seriously Its kinda getting frustrating, although I’m not neccesarily deperate, simply put, di naman ako panget ah!

     I don’t know why I chose to write this entry now, or why the subject just suddenly popped out of my mind. Maybe because I’m finding out that everything doesn’t neccesarily go as planned. I know youre thingking "duh" right now, but really,  it’s been hard for me to accept that no matter how meticulous everything is, there will still be a small glitch, no matter how modern, somethig is bound to go wrong. I just can’t accept that that is just the way the universe is, flawed.

     But well, I had to accept that fact someday. Take my new Sharp calculator for example, because the quadratic function has a bug, I failed my 132 exam. Although I’m not one to wallow in self pity, its still is sad to know that the mistake wasn’t from me but from the technology in my hand.

     Nowadays, people rely on the seemingly endless possibilities of technology. They put their entire lives on their blackberries, on their cellphones, and when these things crash, they’re left with nothing to start from. Whatever happened to good old writing things down?

     I don’t know, maybe I’m just too traditional, or maybe I just don’t like change. This is where those old proverbs contradict themselves. Some proverbs say that we should be content with what we have blah blah blah. Yes, I agree we should accept what fate has given us. But just when you’re starting to accept your crappy life, it goes and changes. They say the only thing that is constant in life is change, so how the hell are you supposed to accept what you have now if eventually its gonna change anyhow?

     Well that’s just one of the mysteries in life that we may or may not solve. But if ayone does, inform me will you?