Archive for November, 2005

Time

Thursday, November 24th, 2005

Time, is what i need

Time, is all it takes, for everything to subside

My stomach’s rumbling, but I don’t really feel like eating.

I want to go to sleep, but I can’t.

Something, somehow, is keeping me up.

People say, that if you can’t sleep, someone’s thinking of you.

Mare/pare stop na, kelangan ko ng tulog!

Maawa ka naman, ansakit na ng ulo ko, pati ba naman tulog ikakait mo sakin?

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I wrote a 500 word entry earlier.

And trashed it.

Too emotional.

That’s not me.

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Its hard to act in front of someone who knows you’re acting.

How do you convince them that its true, when they know its not?

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Pagod na ko, patulugin mo na kasi ako.

Bad rest day

Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005

Here I am again, and man did I pick the worst time to get sick. Just got back from the doctor’s, I have a real bad fever and an equally horrendous headache, not unusual but the headache was especially splitting so I decided to have myself checked up, to be honest my paranoid mind thought it might be a tumor or something.

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Well it wasn’t a tumor, but it seems I am “slightly anemic.” The fever was caused by sore throat (goodbye Awitan) and the fever symptoms were heightened by the anemia and the cold. What a combination huh? A cold, sore throat, fever and anemia, I haven’t had that bad a combination of illnesses since I got Dengue Fever back in second year High school.

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Now I’m taking three pills, not too serious ones though, just iron, vitamin C, and either paracetamol or a decongestant for the headache and the cold. But it really was the wrong time to be sick. I guess the stress has finally caught up with me. Today was supposed to be the day we shoot footages for our entry in the Documentary making contest for Eng’g week, and today is also the day of the first ever, Academic League Leader (ALL), a contest hosted by UP ALCHEMES, I was unable to be in both.

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And now I’m not even sure if I could be fit enough, or if the headaches will subside enough for me to go to school tomorrow. Akala ko pa naman nawala na yung pagiging sakitin ko when I entered college, di pala.

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Well at least I got some rest, and I was able to have quality time with Alan Foust. I also had time to follow up on the past three day’s accounting, well that is when the medicine I’m taking is still in effect and I’m able to read without the splitting headache.

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Maybe the one day rest will be good for me, I think this is God’s way of saying, “Slow down or you’ll overheat.” Well I’ve come to a full stop, and I’ll start accelerating again tomorrow morning.

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As for dokyu, I think I’ll just practice on Adobe premier to make up for my absence and maybe even learn a few more tricks.

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For Awitan, I’m hoping the sore throat goes away before we have to sing.

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For ALL, well, there’s next year.

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And I end this entry with the shortest poem I’ve ever made.

Heart at Mind

Torn apart

Worlds apart

Eons Away

Far far away

Confused

But amused

All in the same day

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It’s more of a sentence really, but, I wouldn’t know where to put the commas and periods.

Enrollment, Painting, Feminism, Dysfunctional Family, Love, Eng’g Week, ALCHEMES, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

Tuesday, November 15th, 2005

Haaay, it’s Tuesday, my most hated day of the week. I don’t know why I just don’t like the day.

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Anyway, at least I got the EnE 31 subject that I needed, and fortunately, (not luckily because luck had nothing to do with it) I got both the ES 26, and EnE 13 subjects that fit my schedule, although I’m stuck with hectic Mondays and boring Tuesdays. I;ve got classes every day of the week, except Sunday.

And to top it all off, I’ve got to go to CaloocanCity Hall to get a certification so that I get a discount off my tuition, tomorrow. And If you don’t already know, tomorrow is the day I have to beg an ES 11 prof to take me into his/her class, it’s also the day of the my first ever UP  ALCHEMES General Assembly as a member AAANDDD, it is also the first day of the regular showing of HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE!!!

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Still don’t get the picture? Well, I’ll have to be in UP at around 9am to get the ES 11 class, then I’d have to be back in Caloocan at around 1:30pm to get the danged certification, then back to UP to attend the General Assembly, and then I’ll somehow have to find someone who’d go with me to watch the Potter movie!

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If worse comes to worst, I’ll have to skive the Potter movie, which is against body’s default settings.

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(TEARS) I have the feeling that I won’t be able to watch the Potter movie at all tomorrow, and I hate it that I’m being forced to do that, UGH!

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What to do, what to do?

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Well there’s nothing I can do, maybe I’ll look back on this entry someday and laugh at myself, but right now, you won’t see a hint of a smile on my sour face.

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Anyway if I get the certification tomorrow, I’d be able to have it assessed and then I can finally get officially enrolled! That is, If I’m accepted into the ES 11 class, if not…

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I’m doomed.

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Hmmm what else happened, oh yeah our main stairs got termite infestation, it was soooo gross, but cool as well, we, that is my dad and I had to remove part of the stairs. Sometimes I think my dad thinks his youngest child is a son. Hehehe.

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And then he hired a guy to completely rebuild the stairs, so yesterday we had to climb the stairs which is on the storage side of the house, we’d have to go outside come back in on the other side just to get upstairs. What a pain.

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Fortunately the stairs can be used now, but it’s not painted yet. And do you know what my dad told me when I asked why it wasn’t painted? He said, and I quote “Hindi talaga pinipinturahan yan bago ikabit, pipinturahan mo yan pag tapos na.”

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Notice anything weird with what he said?

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Did you see the word “mo” there? Yeah, he meant for me to paint the goddamn stairs! Waaaaaaa! Now I’m okay with getting dirty and stuff, a friend of mine once called me “cowboy” because I’m not too particular about getting dirty. But a whole staircase!? Moi?! Paint?! You’ve got to be kidding me!

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Well it turns out he wasn’t, so before he and my mom whisk off to the U.S. this Saturday, he’ll buy me paint, and I’m supposed to have fun painting the stairs during the only day I don’t have classes.

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Well La-dee-da, it’s going to be such Fun!

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NOT!!! 

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By the way he wanted me to paint the stairs so he won’t have to pay somebody else. Yeah as if a trip to the US saved us a LOT of money!!! And he said I was completely capable of doing so seeing as I just renovated my own room, which I only did by painting ONLY the shelves.

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Maybe I should’ve acted more kikay or something, I think my dad can sense independence and feministic inclination, maybe it’s his way of saying, “so women can do the things men can huh? Well then paint the stairs!!!”

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Well I’m all for feminism and such, it’s probably why I’m so competitive with boys my age (Sorry but I’m under the impression that there are no “men” my age, if you think otherwise leave me a not sa comments part ^_^) but lets get real here, I have classes, I have a part time job, and I only have one day in a week of breaks. UGH

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Well at least he won’t be overseeing me do it, which would probably double the annoyance of me having to paint it, my dad has a way of criticizing, and we’re so damn alike that I hate it, after all a critic doesn’t want to be criticized.

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And besides, I’d have three weeks all to myself! Bwahahaha! Well my stupid sister will be here at home with me, together with her equally stupid boyfriend. But she goes to work, so if I arrive earlier than she does, I’ll at least have some quiet time.

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What else, what else I’ve got so much to write I forgot about them. Well most of the things that are bothering me right now are things of the heart, well not mine in particular, but I have a knack for making other people’s problem my problem.

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I won’t expound though, but still, it seems I’m not that “sawi” after all at least di ako binusted.

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Haaay ano pa ba, di ko pa feel na member ako ng ALCHEMES, kasi wala pang apps. Hehehe Sana ung experience ng mga apps ngaun katulad din nun gamin kasi ang saya saya. Sana din madaming magapply para naman lalo kaming dumami hehehe.

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I’m surrently regretting not applying in this org sooner, I would have spent more time having fun, masaya kasi talaga, kahit app pa lang ako nun.

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At ang saya because I get to do activities that I haven’t done since high school, especially because eng’g week is near. So far, balak kong sumali sa Indakan, Dokyu at HP quiz. Yep HP quiz, hehehe, super Potter Geek na ba ito? Well as alternate lang naman, mraming Higher level Potter enthusiasts sa org for me to get to the top, hehehe.

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SA indakan, ewan ko kung ano balak nila pero gusto ko yun kasi gusto ko ng medjo active na participation, yung Dokyu, yun ang magtetest ng aking Camera holding, computer editing at directing prowess na pumurol since high school. Nung high school kasi ako yung laging nasa likod ng camera, ang role ko lagi director/editor/camerawoman. Hehehe

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May isa pa kong gustong salihan pero di ako sure kung qualified ako, sa Awitan. Mahilig kasi akong kumanta kaso mukhang hindi mahilig yung kanta sakin. Well content naman akong kumanta sa shower, pero sana makasali den, kaso sinasali nila ako dun sa mga medjo di ko kayang role like Smoker’s night (hindi ito yosi session ha, more like role playing) at Maskipaps (waaaaa modeling, sa taba kong ito? Noooooo!). Kung kaya lang ng powers ko gagawin ko yun kaso hehehe ilang level-up pa kailangan ko para magawa ko yun.

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ANG HABAAAA! Nitong entry kong toh ah, more than 1,200 words hehehe kulang pa yan, dapat iba;t ibang entry yan kaso pagdating ko sa bahay I feel like my body’s made of lead and my brains been hacked 20 times, so nawawala ang mood kong magsulat.

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Pero ngayon kelangan kong magsulat, dumating na ang latest batch of article assignments ko,  kaya ito work muna.

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Salamat sa mga nagbabasa. ^_^ sanadi kayo nabobore sa kakareklamo ko sa buhay ko.

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I end this entry with a few more words in memory of ALbus Dumbledore.

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“Nitwit! Blubber! Oddment! Tweak!”

Crap post (don’t read)

Saturday, November 12th, 2005

Haaay may pasok nanaman, I dunno, but during sem break I was hoping that school days would come sooner because I was bored out of my guts. Now, that the term has started, I feel like taking that vacation again. Pilipino nga naman, hinahanap talaga ang wala.

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Anyway, I had the feeling that the promis I made tot ere to go to the gym with her would be forgotten, or else completely ignored, I’m hoping it’s just because it’s the start of term and nobody has really settled in yet, I’ll give her a call later.

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Speaking of start of term, mine was as icky as ever, this is the hardest enrollment I’ve even had. Aside from the fact that my waiver to take Chem. 153 was denied, meaning I won’t be taking that this sem, resulting in me getting delayed, DELAYED! Stupid Chem. department chair.

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Anyway I don’t think they’ll accept it at the Chem. Engg department either, they’re getting pretty strict. I’m just hoping they offer majors on succeeding summer classes, I don’t intend to stay in this school for more than I was meant to.

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And as if that wasn’t bad enough, I wasn’t able to get any ES subjects from the online pre-enlistment, and ES subjects are the hardest to get. I’ve still got to prerog ES 11 and ES 26, ES 11, I’m not very problematic about, but ES 26, is a different matter, because there are limited computers in the Es laboratory, waaaaaaa!

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It seems the powers that be do not want me to actually graduate!

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Bakit ba ganun? GrRRrrr.

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I got my hair cut pretty short, it seems I’m not satisfied with any type of hairstyle anymore, If only I could just leave it uncombed right after I wake up and go directly to school I would, pakalbo kaya ako? Waaaaaaa!

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Well maybe I’ll get it relaxed, I don’t have enough money to get it rebonded but siguro relax ok na, although the last time na nagparelax ako eh pumangit ang hair ko, ngaun siguro nde na.

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Sana hindi na, I’m having it relaxed this afternoon, after I do my laundry.

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Ano pa ba? Aaaaah General Assembly sa org ng Nov 16, which also happens to be the first day of regular showing of the Harry Potter 4 movie! I won’t be one of the first to watch it!

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Well its pretty stupid to worry about that, but I make it a point to watch the potter movies early on, though I can watch it at the weekend following that, everyone I know would’ve watched it already… (T_T)

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It is soooo Unfair!!!! Waaaaa

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Does anyone really read this crap that I write, It all seems so, whiny? Well what would you expect right?

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Anyway moving on, I’m hearing the opening theme for Flame of REcca right now, and If you haven’t noticed my profile, it has a samurai X theme, with the First opening theme song, “Sobakasu” playing. I like anime themes because even if I don’t understand them they’re still pretty cool. I’m getting tired of OPM songs right now, because they’re playing over and over on my mp3 player, so when I’m home I listen to anime themes.

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I’ve stored a few of the songs I’ve converted into flash (so they could be playable on the net) and they’re on a website.

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Hehehe there’re only three there the first two Rurouni Kenshin opening themes and the ghost in the Shell Stand alone Complex Second Gig closing theme.

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I’ve also got 4 Rurouni Kenshin Wallpapers. I just stored them there so they’d be easier to use on friendster.

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But I’m not posting the site here! If you want them I’ll gladly send them to you, but you must use your own bandwidth if you want to use them on the net.

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Ahm, ano pa ba? ung lang! (Told you it was a crap post)

thank you

Monday, November 7th, 2005

Try and try until you succeed…

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asa

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One should know when to give up, and right now I’m doing just that.

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Unfortunately, as I was growing up, he was growing down.

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Di ko tuloy alam if I’m the mature one, or if he is the mature one. Parang there some twisted way that its both mature and immature, paradox bay un?

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Well if my English teacher taugh me right the above sentence should be right.

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Buti pa English, natuturo.

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Part of me says that this isn’t logical, and this is against the natural orientation of my psyche, this isn’t me!

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It’s like watching a television program where you know every character except the protagonist.

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Nyak ano ba yang tumutugtog sa LAUNCHcast radio ng Yahoo messenger ko!

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Asar naman bigla daw bang itugtog yung Thank you” by Dido.

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I always liked this song, not for it’s collaboration version with Eminem, but for the soft sound and the very very nakakatamang lyrics.

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Peste bakit pa kasi dumating dating eh, masaya naman ako dati.

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Masaya na ko dati na pinapagilatan ung mga friends ko who get head over heels. Di ko narealize ang hirap pala, I should’ve been more sympathetic, advice ako ng advice, eh di ko naman fully grasped yung situation, tama nga si Salman Rushdie, “Good advice is [indeed] rarer than rubies.”

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Teka maka Dido na ata ako,

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sobra,

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kasi dati…

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“ I won’t go, I won’t sleep, I can’t breathe until you’re resting here with me.”

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Eh give up na kaya ito na lang.

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“And I, want to thank you, for giving the best day of my life”

I’m betrothed!!!!

Tuesday, November 1st, 2005

It’s the first of November, all saints day, and I didn’t go to the cemetery, frankly I don’t think that you have to visit someone’s remains to commemorate their life, (not death) you can remember a loved one just as easily at home, it doesn’t matter where as long as its sincere. Now that I’ve defended myself from possible reprimands regarding my lack of attendance at the cemetery, on with the post!

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Last Sunday, the 30th of October was the day I came back to UP, to, uhm walk, for fitness, coz I can’t jog too far. Anyway I was with a friend, whom I haven’t been with for a long time, and we caught up on the latest news. It was quite fun, even though we went home exhausted. We walked about 3 ½ times around the Acad oval and went to SM at around

9:30 am

then ate breakfast and shopped until

12 pm

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In the course of our walk, we agreed to meet regularly at the gym when school resumes. Yay! I’ve wanted to work out, but haven’t really got the chance to really it. It’s pretty boring doing it on your own.

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So I got home slept till

7pm

ate dinner and went online. Later at about or so, I talked to

Mich

and Berns, both high school friends, and Berns, shared y’know about his love life and all, and I shared all the mushiness that I dared to share.

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Well we were at the point when we’re talking about how hard it is to be in love yadi yadi yada. Both Berns and I were, well, lovestruck, while

mich

hasn’t been struck yet. And we all kinda agreed that we we’re probably the most love unlucky people in the world.

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And during our, “heart to heart” talk, we all agreed to marry each other if we turn forty and are still unmarried.

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It was sort of like what Phoebe and Joey of the sitcom “Friends” agreed to do on the show. I proposed it to them as a joke, thinking they’d say I was crazy or something but they totally agreed. Hahaha at least even if I’m so unlucky in love, I’ll expect to get married, even if I am already forty, that is of course assuming Berns is still unmarried.

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The downside is, if both I and

Mich

are unmarried at the age of forty we’ll all have to be converted to Islam so that Berns can be bigamous.

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This was our Yahoo Messenger conversation

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Mau (10/31/2005 12:15:18 AM): dapat we should make one of those promises to marry each other when we turn forty and are still unmarried, parang sa friends wahehehe

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:15:21 AM

): average lng ko

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:15:24 AM

): hehehhhehe

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:15:29 AM

): nde no above average ka berns

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:15:43 AM

): hehehhe

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:19 AM

): kaya ikaw

mich

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:23 AM

): haha, mau\

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:32 AM

): wag mo muna tangkain…

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:37 AM

): masakit talaga

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:43 AM

): wwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:16:49 AM

): hehehe diba, kasi nga tatanga tanga tau sa love, so by the time na forty tau, tlagang hopeless na, lets just marry each other, di naman kelangan magkaanak

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:07 AM

): korek

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:12 AM

): partner partner

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:18 AM

): hehehehhe

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:35 AM

): deal?

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:39 AM

): oo ba!

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:40 AM

): :))

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:41 AM

): :D

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:44 AM

): oi

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:47 AM

):

mich

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:47 AM

): dapat magmuslim ka na by forty berns

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:53 AM

): kasi ang dami naming babae :))

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:53 AM

): opo

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:17:58 AM

): hahahahahahha

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:07 AM

):

mich

!

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:08 AM

): hahaha

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:10 AM

): ano?

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:13 AM

): by forty?

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:16 AM

): oo forty

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:23 AM

):  =)) asteeg

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:24 AM

): ano

mich

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:28 AM

): deal?

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:30 AM

): seryoso ba to?

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:34 AM

): :))

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:36 AM

): oo

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:41 AM

): game

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:42 AM

): cge go, cguro naman magkakaasawa na tau by forty

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:42 AM

): hahaha

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:46 AM

): cge game!

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:18:52 AM

): game!!!!!!!!!

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:00 AM

): may kontrata ba to dapat?

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:02 AM

): wlang makalimot ha!!!!

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:07 AM

): oo

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:09 AM

): cge isesave ko

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:12 AM

): gawa ka mau

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:14 AM

): hahaha

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:22 AM

): ng black n wyt?

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:24 AM

): pano yan berns, muslim ka na talaga?

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:37 AM

):  :))dapat pag nagforty ka magpaconvert ka na

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:37 AM

): :D

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:37 AM

): opo

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:38 AM

): hahahah

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:43 AM

): opo

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:46 AM

): hahahah

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:55 AM

): oo nga

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:19:57 AM

): kaya ko 2!

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:00 AM

): cge isesave ko toh, ipiprint ko, tas ilalagay ko sa scrapbook

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:06 AM

): hahahahah

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:13 AM

): teka, wag naman nating ipagdasal na wala lahat tayong asawa by then

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:18 AM

): so pano mga future wife ko?!

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:18 AM

): :)) @ berns

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:19 AM

): hahahhaha

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:29 AM

): di naman natin pinagdadasal

mich

, parang worst case scenario lang

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:30 AM

): oo nman

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:38 AM

): kung skali lng…

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:45 AM

): hahaha, kawawa naman si berns

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:48 AM

): :D

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:50 AM

): worst case scenario lang

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:51 AM

): hahaha

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:52 AM

): kaya ko kayo

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:55 AM

): para may pansalo, para na we don’t die as old maids

michiego (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:57 AM

): =))

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:20:59 AM

): bebenta ko ktawan ko

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:21:02 AM

): =))

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:21:07 AM

): hndi ko kau gugu2min…

Mau (

10/31/2005

 

12:21:20 AM

): by that time naman siguro successfull business moguls na tau so wla nang problema sa pera kahit mdaming asawa

bernie (

10/31/2005

 

12:21:22 AM

): =))

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I went to sleep because I had an outing the next, day, me and my childhood friends were going to Bulacan because it’s my cousin’s birthday. Yes, we went swimming on the 31st of October.

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It was actually a recognizable moment, because it was the first time that all the girls in my “home barkada” went on an outing without our guy friends. It’s usually either the whole barkada out swimming, or a boys only swimming.

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We actually thought going outing without the boys would be dull, but it actually wasn’t. We had more fun than when we were with the guys, and we got to do everything we wanted without them “disciplining” us. Boys, what do they know?

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And it was extremely fun seeing their faces when we arrived that afternoon, as if they themselves couldn’t believe that we actually went out without them. Ha! In your faces!

Well my “guy friends” have a knack for keeping to themselves the fun. Drinking marathons, basketball games, outings, you name it, they try to keep us out of it, some friends huh? They say girls are conflict madness, and they can’t hit on other girls with us around. It’s a good thing the barkada got divided into the boys and girls when it did.

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Hehehe at least I know I have really good friends who’ll agree to marry me just so I wont be an old maid. Hehehe, Go Berns!

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betrothed