Blah etc. and everything else

Ok, I’m finally able to update my blog! Whoo, And I’ve been through a lot this weekend. Funny thing is, I’m not in the mood to talk about any of it, I just simply want to forget it, everything, the emotional rollercoaster that I’ve been in since I realized that stupid fact.

I wish I just ignored it, I wish I just stayed in denial, at least I’d still be happy, and not depressed and drowned in self pity. It’s pathetic, I know I’m stronger than this, but why is it that, this sense of hopelessness is slowly engulfing me?

I may be over-reacting on the self pity part, but, anyway, it’s something that relates to the previous entry, about being surrounded with friends, and people, but feeling all alone. It’s not that the people around me are all insincere, I know they’re genuinely who they are, but still there’s something lacking, like Jules said, in his entry, there’s something missing,a nd although I doubt that whats missing in him is the same as what’s missing with me, I can still relate to what eh said. I’m uploading the song Missing by Evanescence in my profile, have a listen to it, it kinda speaks of what I currently feel.

And here’re the lyrics

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
Maybe someday you’ll look up,
And, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one:
"Isn’t something missing?"

You won’t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant…?
Am I so insignificant…?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I’m the sacrifice,
You won’t try for me, not now.
Though I’d die to know you love me,
I’m all alone.
Isn’t someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I’ll bleed,
Knowing you don’t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I’ll wake without you there,
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t something…

[Chorus]

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