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On Sheng’s Comments

First of all before I discuss the title, thanks muna kei SHENg! na laging may oras para basahin ang aking pagkahabahabang blog entries.

Cge grabe dude, baby tawag mo saken, creepy tau na!? Wahahahha matisak tau, ako isang girl na gustong magkaBF pero wlang nanliligaw, and ikaw isang girl na andaming nanliligaw pero ayaw magkaBF, kasi eh bigay mo na lang saken. Yak ako ba ito! Wahahah, oo jogging tau sa Sunday para lumabas naman ang endorphins ko at sumaya naman ang life ko.

Continuing my last Blog Entry: Formal interview part 2

Anyway about the interview, it just made my list of things I’d want to change if I could go back in time, I feel so stupid kasi dun sa mga sagot ko at sa mga ginawa ko dun, yak! Anyways, I wont go into details, sakin na lang at sa panel ko ung humiliation ko dun, YAK!

Ok so I finished my formal interview last tuesday, and guess what, I messed it up! Yak! Todo na ito, sabihin ba namang fault finder ka when hindi mo nakita ng mga faults sa sarili mong statements. Although Fault finder nga naman ako, kasi faults ang una kong nakikita bago ung good, and I admit it, minsan I’m like that talga eh, but it does good for me, especially on projects and stuff, I would be able to see the loopholes in my proposals before the teacher even asks them, well that was because I had time to ponder about the wrongs in my statement, unlike dun sa formal interview ko, I feel so stupid, and wag ka nakalimutan ko ung last name ng president nung org, yak! kakahiya, and sabog pa ung sinulat kong last name nya, wont dive into details too humiliating.

And ito pa, it was only later na I was told na talagang citatory nilang basin mo yung sagot mo, pagdo-doubtin ka nila, and ito ang lola mo, mega doubt, yak! ang dami kong iniba, I wish I could repeat it again, haaay, di bale babawi na lang ako sa tambay hours, waheheheh.

The Sassy Lawyer

Anyway I’ve come to read, "The Sassy Lawyer’s" blog, she’s one of the toppers in pinoy top blogs , which I recently joined, (kaya open nyo lang tong blog ko para tumaas ang ratings ko heheeh) and in fairness and ganda ng blog nya, may photo journal sya, and almost all of her posts are on politics, ang saya nga basahin eh, may opinion na (na reasonable at rational naman, lawyer sya eh) may news pa, isang tingin mo lang sa blog nya, di mo na kailangan manood ng news. Her other blog pinoy cook is the top one in the blog ranks. Wala lang natuwa kasi ako sa opinions nya, kasi pareho kami ng iniisip.

Good news Bad News (pasensya wala si Arn-arn)

I must be losing my touch, hindi ako nakapagpost nung times na sabog ako, like after the interview, pero ok na rin kasi, at least umiikli ung posts ko kasi nakakalimutan, or tinatry ko nang kalimutan ung mga details.

Anyway, from tuesday onwards, may good news naman, pero bad news muna. heheh nagpahula ako duns kay Jen, isa syang member ng ALCHEMES, yak, syempre nagpahula ang lola mo tungkol kay greater love, yak greater love! Well anyway wala di kami pwede may mahal na syang iba (tears!) oh well, at least I’m almost over you nah! erase na ung almost, wakekeke, so I’m back to my old, matador, mapangalaska self, which I think thankful ang mga friends ko, hehe sila na lang nakakalam nun.

Anyway another bad news, nanganganib na talaga ko sa Math 55! Yak! ano na ang aking gagawin!

Good news naman, may bago akong raket, I wrote tips part time around early June, and the woman who hired me then is hiring me again, although ghostwriting lang sya (hindi lalabas ang byline ko) for an online publication, ok lang hehehe, and she gave me three assignments! Yay magkakapera (

sana

) ulit ako! Kaso, di pa dumadating sakin yung pera, ni hindi ko pa nga napagtratrabahuhan yung pera eh pinagkakagastusan ko na. Yak!

Sana

lang ung 2 ko pang ibang writing raket ay magbigay pa rin ng assignment saken, huhuhu nauubusan na ko ng pera.

The Nerve of that Guy

So, its time to talk about the friggin title, wahehehhe, bad trip, there was this guy who messaged me here @ friendster, and I just read his message, ahm check him out daw, yung profile nya etc. Wala daw syang picture kasi di nya gustong ipakita, not because he’s married or anything (guilty!) ayokong ilagay ung message nya baka masyado syang madown, anyways, nagpapa-ad sa friendster and all that, all of this in not so grammatically correct English. (yak mangmata daw ba, pasensya na as I said I’m back to my old self) so ok, wla akong magawang iba I take a look at his profile, baka nagpapaintellectual type lang, pasikat, anyway ok lang tignan ang profile ni Lolo.

And then ang profile ng lolo mo, mahilig daw sya sa SEX, (yuck noh! : take note ang YAK ay expression ko, ang YUCK ay expression ko for grossness) interested daw syang mameet ang mga taong interested makipag SEB, waaaaa, mukha ba akong hooker?! I think noT! The nerve of that guy.

hehehe kala nyo kung ano noh?

On Loneliness (the part that actually relates to the title)

A friend of mine posted something on loneliness, and I think I can relate, she was saying something about, being surrounded with friends, but still being lonely, she even used the metaphor or a girl crying because she was thirsty.

Main point, irony. I can actually relate, I even gave her a few snippets of advice, things that doesn’t work on me anymore, it used to but it doesn’t anymore.

Have you ever experienced the feeling of hopeless loneliness? I don’t think that’s what I;m feeling, yet, but it looks like I’m getting there You know, when you’re with friends you laugh like there’s no tomorrow, as if the day was o great, as if it was the greatest day you ever had, you have fun, play cards, talk about senseless stuff, especially these days when its raining, masarap magreminisce, ala Nescafe commercials.

You’re there with friends

You laugh and enjoy yourself

Or so you think

Everything is perfect

The way the rain falls

The way the leaves are green

Even the way the jokes we’re said

But at the end of the day

you lie in bed

you contemplate on the things you’ve done

the things you’ve accomplished

then a dark shroud just comes down on you

like whatever happened earlier hasn’t been

whatever thing that compelled you to laugh earlier

was just a joke

a slice of imagination that was

you acknowledge it

pray for a better tomorrow

and the next day

you do it all over again

all in hope that one night

that shroud would finally leave you be

The above was supposed to be a paragraph, but I thought it’d look better as a poem.

Says exactly how I feel. Haaaay

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