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     Ok I’m slightly pissed, because I wrote a whole entry a little earlier and i kinda erased it, accidentally! GRRRR!

     But no matter, I’ll just write a new one.

     So I think I’m finally over my slump, its instant actually. Monday was one of my all time lows, you can tell by my entry last monday . But yesterday, I got to talk to Berns, yesterday, problematic din kasi sya, I posted part of it on my entry yesterday. Anyway, after he read my comment, and after my very long text sakanya, we got to talking, and we did something we haven’t done in a while. (Uy ikaw iba iniisip mo ha!) Hehe we laughed, at ourselves. Thats what i liked about my friends from LAco, when we come to a point where there is little hope, we laugh. Autistic noh?

     I figured its better to laugh than to cry, at least at some points, sabi nga dun sa Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, there is a time for everything.

     Natutuwa ako when I remember yung times, na sobrang hopeless na yung situation naming magkakaibigan, natatawa na lang kami. Sometimes kasi, its better to laugh at yourself, acknowledge your mistake, know that there’s nothing more you can do, that you did everyhting that you could, laugh at yourself, and then try not to do it again.

     And yun yung ginawa namin ni Berns, although pinagtatawanan ko pa rin ang sarili ko after naming mag-usap, di ako nahiya sa sarili ko, ako yun eh. Wierd no?

     And I woke up this morning to a lighter heart, which continued to an even lighter day, I don’t know what it was about this day pero magaan ang feeling ko, kahit hell week na, today, nawala yung pressure sakin. Siguro dahil nalaman kong take home na lang ang exams sa ChE 32, at siguro dahil na rin sa hindi kami nagklase nung afternoon sa ChE. Siguro nakaganda rin yung hindi muna ako tumambay sa tambayan, ewan ko, kasi pag asa tambayan ako, ang saya saya ko, kaso pagdaitng ko sa bahay nalulungkot ako, wierdo tlaga.

     Anyway, because i had a pocket of time, I thought since my day was going so well, I’d treat myself. And hulaan nyo kung nao ang ginawa ko? Una ang iniisip ko, magpapahotoil ako then magpapafacial ako, haaay, pero I said to myself gastos lang yun, and besides, di pa kasya yung pera ko ngaun, di pa sumusweldo. Waheheh

     So I bought the foods that I’ve been dying to buy this past few weeks. And no, its not choclates or sweets or potato chips or whatever, kahit na meron akong chocolate craving last time, di chocolates and binili ko. Here is the list of what I bought sa supermarket kanina:

2 cans tuna flakes in oil (low fat)
1 head of lettuce
200 gms Mozarella Cheese (low fat)
10 packs Plain crackers (Sky Flakes)
236ml Caesar Salad Dressing

     In short, health food ang binili ng lola mo, except probably dun sa Caesar salad dressing, dapt EVOV ang bibilin ko (extra virgin olive oil) kaso hindi ko naman trip yun hehehe.

     So in short, kumain lang ako ng ceasar salad ala mau, which consists of plain crackers, ceasar salad dressing, lettuce and grated mozarella cheese. Masarap sya! todo, parang yung perfect day ko, kahit di masyadong umuulan, at kahit wla ako sa middle ng forest, at kahit nabasa ko na ang Harry Potter and the Half blood Prince na binabasa ko kanina, ok lang, sabi nga nila, di mo marereacha ng perfection, you can only approach it, at masaya na ko sa closeness to perfection ng araw na ito.

     Plus pagdating pa ni mama, may uwi syang sushi! Ang sarap! Buhay baboy nanaman ako! Nawala ang bigat actually. Kasi pag chocolates and kinakain ko, ang sinasabi nilang nakakapagpasayang food, eh parang mas na-sasad ako. But when I at healthy, ang sarap ng feeling, wla kasing guilt. Hehehe Later i plan to eat my other invention, tuna flakes with cracekrs and mozarella cheese. Basically papaikut-ikutin ko lang ung binili kong food kanina. Haaay

     And where does guy come in? Wala! Bwahaha Goodby, pinalitan na kita ng isda at gulay!

     It’s nice to be back, to being happy go-lucky again, di kasi ako sanay na di ako masaya. Malamang sa mga tao around me, mukhang di ako nalulungkot, kaso mas matagal ko kasing kasama ang sarili ko kaysa sainyo eh, kaya di nyo kita, its good na masaya ako inside as well as outside. Thanks talaga kay God, heheh napakalaki ng tulong nya. Sa mga friends na rin, na todo support, kay Helen, Berns at Lynius, nakaktuwa kayong tatlo, kahit pare-pareho taung sawi eh, nagtutulungan pa rin.

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