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Her I am again, with my latest series of whines and grunts.
But before the series of awkward moments, unfortunate events, and downright
disturbing acts, I shall start with one good news, hehehe, I saw great love
today, sya ung greater love before the greater love of today, ang gulo noh, he
had his hair longer na, din a xa kalbo, sad, and I realize magkahawig sila ni
greater love. Haay although wala sila sa range of ideal guys ko, oh well what
can you do? Anyways, I’m not so as the song said “caught up” with all of it anymore;
I’ve got more things on my mind.

And speaking of more things on my mind, the Applicants
talents night for ALCHEMES is this Saturday, and being the worrywart that I am,
I’m having problems sleeping at night thinking about all the problems that we’re
going to have to face on the day itself, like sound system, transition blah
etc, and everything else.

Ugh, nangigigil na ako dun sa assigned dun sa programs committee,
tulog ng tulog, GRRRR! Ang dami pang pasaway na apps, todo naman sa totoo lang
kung di naman sila seryoso sa application bakit pa sila nagapply, di man lang
sila nahiya dun sa mga umaattend na apps, na di makapagpractice dahil wala
sila.

Its not the fact that they don’t attend naman eh, of course
everyone has other activities, di lang naman application ang inaatupag natin lahat,
pero

sana

naman, have the civility
of informing the people that are waiting for you about you being absent. On
that note, I commend ung mga group mates ko na nagsasabi saken kung di sila
makakapunta. Di naman kasi sapilitan and pagattend, although sometimes,
namimilit na tlaga ako, naiintindihan ko naman kung hindi sila makapunta, pero
please naman INFORM US para di kami mukhang tanga ng paghihintay.

HAAAY I finally got it out, as if naman mababasa nila to
noh! Pero gigil pa rin, kung ganyan lang din eh

sana

nga mapahiya… sila sa talents night. Kaso maapektuhan kasi ung whole
performance dahil sa kapasawayan nila.

Having got that thorn out of my side, I’ve been wanting to
air out that frustration of mine ever since this whole dang application
started, why did I choose this time to apply? Si Lynius kasi eh, wla naman
tlaga akong balak magapply dis sem, pero ito ako, bibo pa daw.

And here’s something funny, bibo daw ako, me moi? And tahimik
ko ngang bata eh (ehem) Pero seriously, may nagtatanong saken bakit di daw ako
batch head, answer ko, kahit andun ako ng election, di ako magiging batch head,
kasi pag di ko pa kakilala ung tao di ko kinakausap. Suplada ako, heheheh di
ako nambabati ng tao kung hindi sya ung unang babati saken. Well dati ganun, I had
to tweak a few screws to get my proud self to smile at people, knowing full
well that there is a slight chance that they won’t recognize me, which is the
real reason behind me not greeting anyone, fear of not being recognized and
looking like a total idiot.

So here I am writing scripts for my group’s performance,
although I already assigned people to write scripts, I’m one of those people
who isn’t satisfied with anything unless I’m the one who does it. I’m just that
kind of person; I’m not satisfied with anybody’s work unless it has a touch o f
my own. Unless of course, that somebody who does it did it better than me, which
is of course not unusual.

I don’t like the lime light either, I’m just happy to work
in the background, sabi nga ni Thet, “Director ka nanaman,” when I told her
about talents night. This is because since high school, director lang tlaga ang
role ko, although there was a time that somebody got me to perform in a play,
it was entitled “Mayday Eve” a short story by nick Joaquin, which is by the way
one of my favorites.

My director syndrome is also probably the reason why every one
thinks me bibo, because I stand up when anyone asks for suggestions, because is
peak up when anyone asks for comments, and that’s just me trying to control the
flow of the story/program, I’m not just going to sit down and let someone else
plan out something that I’m going to work hard for, I’d want to be there when
they’re planning what I’m going to do, and I’m going to make sure that I have a
say in it. Which is why, mrami akong suggestions.

Oh and people say that I’m creative, nooo! I can’t make a
decent creative plate if my life depended on it. Maybe performance wise, I have
a lot of ideas because I’m well informed in those types, I have ideas, that range
from my own, to those I watch on TV, to those I’ve done before and to those I’m
willing to try and do, and since because there are very few opportunities to
try these out, they all get stuck in my brain until someone opens the dam and lets
all of it out; and I seem to have a knack for finding people’s funny bones, I
dunno, ang corny corny ng jokes ko, tawa naman sila ng tawa.

This is all in reaction to a set of questions that was sent
out through text earlier, about first impressions and stuff, somebody said bibo
ako, and matalino (ehem) and mabait (ehem again) and mataray, (ok accepted)
which was really nakakataba ng heart. *sniff I’m so glad I have such great
friends who’d lie just so I’d feel good about myself. Hehehe

Oh well this entry spans 981 words and I think that’s enough
for now. Next whine session is probably after talents night, when I’ll shower
my frustrations yet again about how badly, or greatly it went.

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