Blah etc. and everything else

I read a UP freshie’s blog a few minutes ago, and found a few interesting things that she mentioned, things that I miss (still do) from High School, although we didn’t go to the same high school, it seems the things I miss from my day (huwaw antanda ko na) are still mostly, the things she misses from her day, and since I liked what she did so much, I’m making my own list of the things i miss from highschool

* The morning prayers, sa Laco kasi, every morning we recite these set of prayers, morning offering, prayer for peace, etc. etc. prayer for the beatification of mother consuelo, and of course every mondays , (or is it fridays) the song "In Glory Untold"

in the beggining of this semester, my friends (same batch) and I during our traditional (kuno) first sem meal/ Laco-UP Freshman introduction at Chocolate Kiss, we tried to recite the morning offering and the prayer for peace, and wag ka, memorize ko pa ang mronign offering, however, ung prayer for peace eh nagiging parang circular, waheheheh pagdating sa merciful, may few words, and then merciful ulet, tpaos ulet ulet na, i think we asked a few second years Laco-UP pipol about the next lines, but Iforgot it again.

*Basic Ecclesial Community; Although i admit, that this was probably the one activity that most bored me druing highschool, I kinda miss it, y’know, every monday we discuss Sunday’s gospel, sniff* we used to have a lot of fun watching my Values Ed. Teacher pick his nose, waheheheh.

*Colorful Papers. in my high school, pagandahan ng project, so ang mga term papers, research works, investigatory projects, lahat nakaprint sa mga scented, textured, colored papers, of course dapata colorful dina ng ink a maarte and font, dun nga kami nagtatagal sa paggawa ng project eh, sa pagpili ng font.

*Yung mga instant plays na binabarubal ng boys. Kahit na tumataas ang blodo pressure ko sa mga boys ng class namen pag nagdidirect ako ng play/project, i still miss the times when I’d just shout at them and they’d shut the hell up, eh dito sa Peyups, wala lang dedma-esh.

* Yung mga boys na nanlilibre sa jeep, although I don’t require my guy friends to do this, I placed it here in place of a more cliche word, which is chivalry, or ung pagiging gentlemen ng mga friends ko na guys from LAco. Grabe, dito kasi todo aagawan ka pa sa seat, nakakamiss talaga ung pagiging gentleman ng mga guy friends ko, especially si Berns (Luv yah berns!) (uuy humahaba na hair nyo ha)

*Yung mga group projects na gagawin namin sa bahay nila yocs, pero and mangyayari magplaplaystaion muna kami bago namin masimulan

*Yung pag-iyak ni yocs sa CR dahil di pa nya tapos ung project nya, na minsan nakakagaan ng loob kasi parang nagwoworry na sya para sa buong klase.

*Yung pagsigaw ni Bau na "Benjo." that shout has a story, when Bau, the prex of the class, shouts Benjo, it means a figure of authority, most of the time a teacher, or the principal is approaching the classroom, and we should behave. It started in third year, when it was I think intemurals, everybody wasn’t in the mood to watch a bunch of gradeschools tudents dance in the quad, so we went back to our rooms, and played tong-its, chess, pusoy dos etc. The classroom looked like a friggin casino. Card games were prohibited inour school, kahit hindi perahan, so since, teh room looked liek a casino, we’d shout "RAID" everytime a teacher approaches the room, later we thought "RAID" was too obvious, so we changed it to "BAYGON" but then it was also, easy to figure out, so the prex proposed a word so unrelated to what we were doing, and he proposed, the name of one of my guy classmates, "Benjo" which in turn became synonymous with teacher, so when I say may benjo, it means may teaher.

*Yung mga swimming pag may birhtday, kasi kahit naman sa malabon lang kami nagswiswimmign nun, kumpleto naman kami, eh ngayon, magaya ka ng swimming 75% ng inaya mo di pede kasi may gagawin.

*ACP or Aerosapce CAdets of the Philippines, ito ang katumbas ng CAT, sa school namen, and I think kaya ko lang naenjoy to eh dahil sa officer ako, wakekekek, masaya lalo na pag may practice ng marching, kasi pag wala si Sir Caro, nagchichikahan lang kami. Xempre masaya din yung you get to boss around ung mga COCC, kasi ang handle ko nun eh COCC.

*yung mga words and expressions na naimbento namen or nareuse namen like:

Benjo: Already explained this

Ungas: Basta ungas ka yun na yun

Dispalinghado: sabog, haggard, spaced out

Dead Hungry: Patay gutom (thanks to mich)

Spank Soil: Hampas Lupa (mich agen)

President’s Cut: ibig sabihin wala ung teacher at ang President ang in charge sa class

Sabi ko nga: And sasabihin mo pag mali ung sinabi mo at kinorek ka ng isang tao

Thanks a lot choconut berrynut peanut likethat… - Way of thanking ni Jaimie Mislang

Jhzopay: Tawag kay Jhoanna Solomon na nagbalak mag Sex bomb noon

Baclark: Tawag kay clark noon na deny pang juding sya

Taning; Tawag kay Jonathan na may balak atang kalabanin si Lucifer

Bernie KAbulusan: Tawag kay berns dahils a Kabulusan sya nakatira
bi balitkad ng Buyoc, ito ang last name nya

Mezzo Badingski Bodabogis Kulasis Aruba Jokla: Tawag kay clarizza pring na ngayon ay shinorten na sa Bakla

Eukehuele: Tawag kay Kris Huele na nagevolve into Jewel, and baho daw kasi ng Eukehuele

Inamoy: Tawag kay anamay na nagevolve from sinamay

madam: Tawag kay ana kasi kamukha nya si Gloria Macapagal arroyo

Laughter/Tears- Pangbara sa mga corny jokes, or corny sad stories

har-har- tawag ni Michelle sa mga Konyo

marami pa yan dadagdagan ko na lang

*Counter Strike afternoons, at Counter strike Kwento. Sila Berns ang may kasalanan nyan kugn bakti naadik ako sa CS, noon. Hehehe favorite pa nila nun ung lyrics na computer shop kasi imbes na FIre in the hole ang sinasabi ng character, and sinisigaw nya "Etong sayo!" Hehe, mas madalas ako nun sa Cyber fox, todo ang ingay ko nun, asal lalaki as always, kala nga daw nila (nung mga madalas maglaro dun sa comp shop na un) Ale na ako, un pla 3rd yr highschool pa lang. Kasama ko pa nun nung una ung mga barkada ng ate ko na mga 5 yrs older saken, computer kami hanggang 11pm. Mga 3-5 hours a day nung adictus days.

*Yung mga kagaguhan ng mga boys noon, tulad ng "AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHh" DUg! stunt ni Benjo, yung synchronized swimming, na wala sa tubig ni Tan at Berns at yung pagprepretend nilang bodyguards, ni Anna (A.K.A. madam) nung nagpagupit sya at kamukha nya si GMA, pati ba naman pag recess sinasamahan pa nila sya.

*Yung time na everytime na may sabihing words ang teacher na may resenmblance sa lyrics ng kanta eh kinakanta namen ung song. Sa section namen, nung first year nauso to, pero nung 4th year, batikan dito ang IV- Piety

*Yung pagkanta namin dati ng "Alive alive alive forevermore, my jesus is alive, alive forevermore" everytime may makasagot ng isang mahirap narecitation question sa class. (1st yr H.S.)

*Yung pag-organize ng activities, naaalala ko nun pag activity week, nauubos ung tao sa classroom anmen, kasi lahat excused or nagpapaexcuse para gumawa ng activity sa kung saang club na malamang isa syang officer.

*Yung retreats, masaya toh lalo na overnight, makapagupload nga ng pics.

*Yung 1,2,3 pass, na pauso ni bau, kasi pag nakabuo ka, itatakbo nung nakbuo ung baraha at kung saan saan ibababa.

*Yung wheel of fortune pag walang teacher napasimuno din ni Bau.

*Ung cheering na kahit pasaway yung mga batchmates ko eh, nagawa namin ng mga nakakatakot na stunts, at mas masaya ng kinabukasan nong araw na yon, kasi, kahit pasaway sila lahat, dito lang kami nag-unite as a batch, when all the fourth years were supposed to wear blue, nagblack kami lahat, in silent protest of the results (di kami nanalo sa cheering competition, eh kahit mga teachers sabi kami daw dapat, hmph) at we got away with it,wearing black I mean, walang nagawa ang admin, supposedly kasi di pwedeng pumasok pag di suot ang batch colors, casual kasi nun kasi intrams, ang only requirement, nakablue dapat ang fourth years. Eh ano ba magagawa nila, eh ang mga bantay nun sa Gate to check kung naka batch colros ang mga taong pumapasok ay mga COCC, did I emtnion hawak ko sila that time? Hehehe di nila madeny ung mga officers na pumapasok, edi syempre ung iba din makakapasok. Hehe excuse namen nun, kasi month anniversary ni Paul, ang kabatch kong namatay ng wala sa oras.

Wala na kong maisp dagdagan mo na lang mamaya, gawin ko muna ung due kong artiks mamaya

I woke up this morning with a slight headache, a bit of nausea and feeling like I want to vomit all my guts out, and no its not a hangover, the past few days, I’ve had an insatiable craving for chocolates, and not just chipipay chocolates, I’ve been craving for a Hershey’s plain chocolate bar for the past two weeks……. YAK BUNTIS!!!

Well, you could say that if immaculate conception can happen again, but I doubt the Almighty would choose me as a holy mother. Nevertheless, I feel so bad today that even if I bought myself that most coveted Hershey’s bar I still feel like vomiting.

What the hell is wrong with me? Ugh must be all the stress. I cant believe I’ve got so much to do in so little time, (and yet I still have time for this) how the heck am I supposed to finish 10 (well at least its 10 not 18) articles by tommorow? Well maybe I should start right now, but my body is still in procrastinate mode, UGH, these days there seems to be nothing in the world that could convince me to do work, and I’m here in the CSSP computer lab staring at P.E.’s face which, doesn’t do much good for my state, but rather makes me want to puke even more, UGH.

Oh well, I have a math class @ 10 so better be going, I’ll post the posts from my tabulas blog in a few days, maybe after my hell weeks are finished, I’m still hoping it wouldn’t extend to hell month, but I might be wrong. *sigh I wish I’d see “Guy” today, para naman medjo gumaan ang loob ko. I’m out

I’ve had it with tabulas, for some reason all the pictures I’ve uploaded wont appear on my blgo there! UGH!!! and to think I had good posts there too, I used to post differently at my tabulas and friendster blogs, and now I’m shutting down my tabulas blog. Of course i’m copying all that I’ve written there and I’ll post it here so it’ll be safe. Hehehe, sorry for those (if there still are) people who read this, it’ll probably confuse you. But I have a few good short stories in my tabulas blgo that i just can’t let go. Will post it in a few uhm, minutes, wahehehe.

No, regurgitating office chairs haven’t been invented yet, although I think it’d be a whole lot of fun for employees to watch their bosses being spitted out by their chairs adn landing on theur asses, unfortunately, that is next to impossible. But what I mean about regurgitating office chairs, the title of this entry is that, right now, I’m about to puke out office chairs, ick.

After one whole week of preparations for Talents night, in which every other activity o mine seemed to cooperate, meaning, I wasn’t given any article assignments for the online mag gig that I do part time, my tutee doesn’t need tutoring because exams just finished and there hasn’t been much to study, and my Sense and Style Magazine gig, although kinda depressing me, hasn’t given me any assignments yet, so you do realize how thakful I was, and still am, that all of my other rakets sort of stopepd to give way for the talents night practice.

But just when I was realizing my dreams of eight hours of sleep at least once a week, my online mag editor gives me 18 (EIGHTEEN!!!) article assignments due on Wednesday, not that I’m complaining, thats a hundred bucks per article, but how am I supposed to do that much when I have an exam on Wednesday? Still asking for an extension.

Anyway, In my previous post, I said I just realized that somebody was reading my blog and leaving comments, I’m touched, waheheheh, and if those two people (ehem nagpaparinig) are serious about the jogging endeavor, todo Go ako! Wakeke. Magparamdam naman kau. (tears! T_T)

Anyway I’ve still got a take home, essay type exam for my Asian History Class, which is proving to be more difficult than I expected, a take home exercise for my Physics class due tommorow, which is supposed to be done with a partner, or in my case pratner who hasn’t texted me. Will text him later. I still haven’t understood a word my ES21 prof is saying, my ChE 32 prof is due to come back next week expecting that all the handouts he left has been read already, i stll have to watch the movie assignmetn that my Asian hsitory prof ahs assigned me, and my Physics Lab Report is due next week, to add to that my body still hurts like hell, and to think I’m still thinking about jogging this weekend. Oh well back to work, now that i wrote it down, it seems I have a lot to do, just ralized it. Wohoho, gotta go. Hope u enjoyed your read.

Oh sorry xeng di ko na nababasa blog mo, will drop by whenever I’m free (If thats possible) or whenever I feel like procrastinating, (which is almost always) hehehehe.

Gosh I’ve been so busy that I didn’t realize that people we’re actually reading my blog!Todo, Special thansk to Sheng na mukhang lahat ng entries ko binabasa. Nahihiya tulyo kao kasi wla akong time basahin ung iyo. SOrry Xeng!

And xempre si Karol! Pinuri pa ko nyan! Wakekeke!

And si Ate JOy, huwaw naman akala ko di mo na ko kilala, nung naktia kasi kita date sa UP, desma-esh mo lang aketch. Hehehe

Well anyway, here are the long overdue replies to the comments! i color coded them so you know whihc belongs to which set. Its in the sequence, Post title; comment; nag-comment; reply sa comment

I miss my BED!

naku balik buhay-baboy ka na nyan pagkatapos mong mag-apply. ^_^

xeng

- Oo nga buhay baboy ulet pagkatapos ng app! Wakekek magpakababoy tau dalawa!

Grunge modes part I and II

oooh… backstabbing… sounds very familiar. ^_^ cmon dude you have true friends. isn’t that something to be happy about? ^_^

xeng

-Wahehehe nadala ako ng emosyon

August 5 entry

hmmm… was the guy that which you went out with once? ^_^

xeng

- No that wasn’t the guy Xeng, I only went out with the guy once, and that was (ehem) enough. I’m over "Guy" for now though, have a lot on my hands already.

August 14 entry

haha… i like the "in your face" part. ^_^

xeng

-Yeah the in your face part really hurts, and whats fun about it, I dunno if fun is the right word, the thing is, even though i already wrote about, it, I still do the same stuff everytime I tutor my cousin.

Looking for Jogging Partners

ako nagjojog…waheheh…wala nga lng akong car…ur such a user! waheheh..ngaun ko lang napancin..cno ung kalapit mo sa picture mo? parang lalake!! wahehehe…

Karol

-Pota ngayon ko lang nabasa toh! Wakekeke, Cge ba, Paiwan na lang sa Molave ng Gamit! Oist dia ko user ha! slight lang. Kelangan lang ng car para paglagyan ng Gamit, eh since dormer ka naman, paiwan na lang dun! ugn sa pic naman, oo lalake un, ung pic ko, un din ung group pic ko na nasa friendster ko, apat kami jan sa pic na pinagkunan ko nyan, yan ung afternoon ng Lantern Parade. ^_~

four angels and a bitch

hahaha… mau baket parang sobrang galit nung number five mo? ^_^gagawin ko rin sa blog ko toh… ^_^

xeng

-Xa ung nagforce saken na isulat yan! Waheheh pero luv na love ko ung first four, they really push through for me.

Looking for jogging partners

would jog with you sana kaso i fail on the criteria on having a car. lolx. pagkagaling ng asthma ko sasama ako sau. misssssss you…

xeng

-Waaaa bwiset, bat ngaun lang ko nabasa itech! Well ikaw naman ang dati kong jogging partner eh, wahehehhe, kaso kelangan talaga naten ng paglalagyan ng gamit! Not neccesarilly a car, you of all people would know that, waheheh. Mishu den.

Its 2 am! And all I can say is, it’s finally over! Yes my friends, yesterday (it’s already the 28^th) at 8 o’clockin the evening, the Talents Night for my application at the org UP ALCHEMES started. And now I am at home, and after pigging out on leftover tacos from the ref, I can finally make this entry which I have been itching to make ever since we finished the last performance.

Although I don’t think I can do justice on all the hardships I went through to get here and finish it, I think it’ll be, for now, enough to say that so far this is one of the biggest rocks off my back in years.

The performance was great, almost all of it was received well, and I could actually see all the mems squirming with laughter. The theme of our talents night was a flash through television programming. And w made spoofs of many of the known commercials and shows today. It was really a great night, I didn’t expect it to turn out this well, and I’m hoping I could upload a few clips to the net. I brought my video cam with me and had one mem video part of the event. Thanks to kuya Cy for doing me the favor, kahit super kapal na nag face ko when I asked him. Todo nakakahiya ung ginawa kong yun ha! Oh well we can’t take that back, nahiya tuloy kao kei kuya Bryan when I had the guts to ask him to video the event, ang kapal ko na!

Oh well so here I go in enumerating the events that lead to this glorious, and tiring night, and although half my body is screaming sleep, I don’t think I’ll have time after my Talent’s night induced coma to remember all of the events and all of the hardships, personally, I think my brain will be forced to forget all the stupid and morbid things I had to do so that made this night as great as it was.

First I of course didn’t make all of this happen, although I must say I had a bigger part than most, it was still the efforts and the kakalogan of all the apps that made it all so funny.

Thanks to Zamo, Bryan, Epi, Maki, and all the others, for agreeing to dressing up as women. The truth is, the mems were all shocked at the amount of people who agreed to cross dress! Hahaha indeed there was a lot of cross dressing that night, and a lot of laughter, what was for me the greatest moment of the night, was the mems congratulating us, there’s nothing more relaxing or restful than knowing that people appreciated all the hard work you’ve done. I’m planning on asking my co-apps for copies of the pics that they’ve got so that I can upload them here.

So back to the hardships that I had to go through tog et here. I haven’t slept less in any other week of my life than I did last week. I averaged 3 hours a day, and I was lucky if I slept 4. There was a practice every afternoon, and being the leader of my group, (the applicants were divided into three groups) I had to always be there, and of course I also had to bear the frustration of all the “sorry ate di ako makaattend”  and the “wag na nating practisin kulang kulang naman tayo”.

Yes the frustration! And everything that goes with it, I actually ran out of energy! On the first day of practice, we practiced for four hours of modern dance with only a few minutes of rest. Well they had a several more minutes of rest than I because while the others were resting, I took the time to teach the late people the steps.

On the second day, there was very little group-mate turnout, and we practiced the dance yet again. On the third day, there wasn’t any practice on the fourth and fifth day, we got to practice most of the skits, but as I said, there was never a complete practice.

By the end of the hell week, half my body was aching and I had to take pain relievers just to be able to bear the hike to the jeepney stop. My legs were killing me. And aside from that, half of the applicants were asking me what to do, and that is not my job! I’m not a batch head, although some people mistake me for one, sorry ma-volunteer lang ako! Wahehehe.

Being exposed does have its advantages, at least I know most of the mems, and they know me as well. But this talents night I think I could have done better though. I’m not very fond of the limelight, I’m not very fond of stages either, so I limited my appearances in the plays, and in doing so, wasn’t really appreciated, I now wish that I exposed myself a little more, wala lang, parang di kasi narealize lahat nung hirap na pinagdaanan ko.

Anyway, kudos to Zamo, Maki and Gherick who got really exposed, they were applauded most in the group, Zamo with his Sumusunod sa galaw mo skit, he’s actually already being nominated for Miss Engg, Maki, for his voice, already mems are asking him to sing in various occasions, and finally Gherick for his grace, ang galing nyang sumayaw!

Although I thought my group could have done better, not that I don’t give an “A” for their effort. I’d give four thumbs up for the effort on the part of my group-mates, they we’re very enthusiastic, although some didn’t actually work as hard as the others, still they weren’t that much of a headache (yak sipsip). What I’m saying is, I think I failed my group-mates as a leader, all the other group’s performances were received very well, and all of their members were exposed rightfully, and I feel like I could have done better to expose my group-mates if I just tried harder. So I’m sorry, I feel that we were overshadowed by the greatness of the others, but still we had our redeeming factors, the modern dance (xempre andun ako) which to be honest wasn’t as draggy as the other dances, the remake of sumusunod sa galaw mo, featuring Zamo which was received very well, and Maki’s performance.

Haaay, I’m just finally glad its over, and although I did some things I’d rather not, I wont be able to change them, I’m just really thankful that the mems liked it. Special thanks to Mr. Stephen Doliente for giving 150% on everything, he looked like heaven on the start of the week, and the truth is, I din’t know you could go from ehaven to hell so fast, because he sure looked like hell. But everyone’s face was palstered with smiles on the end of the performance, not just the mems but also the apps, somehow, I knew what everybody was thinking, “SALAMAT TAPOS NA!” And I say, Amen brothers!

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Her I am again, with my latest series of whines and grunts.
But before the series of awkward moments, unfortunate events, and downright
disturbing acts, I shall start with one good news, hehehe, I saw great love
today, sya ung greater love before the greater love of today, ang gulo noh, he
had his hair longer na, din a xa kalbo, sad, and I realize magkahawig sila ni
greater love. Haay although wala sila sa range of ideal guys ko, oh well what
can you do? Anyways, I’m not so as the song said “caught up” with all of it anymore;
I’ve got more things on my mind.

And speaking of more things on my mind, the Applicants
talents night for ALCHEMES is this Saturday, and being the worrywart that I am,
I’m having problems sleeping at night thinking about all the problems that we’re
going to have to face on the day itself, like sound system, transition blah
etc, and everything else.

Ugh, nangigigil na ako dun sa assigned dun sa programs committee,
tulog ng tulog, GRRRR! Ang dami pang pasaway na apps, todo naman sa totoo lang
kung di naman sila seryoso sa application bakit pa sila nagapply, di man lang
sila nahiya dun sa mga umaattend na apps, na di makapagpractice dahil wala
sila.

Its not the fact that they don’t attend naman eh, of course
everyone has other activities, di lang naman application ang inaatupag natin lahat,
pero

sana

naman, have the civility
of informing the people that are waiting for you about you being absent. On
that note, I commend ung mga group mates ko na nagsasabi saken kung di sila
makakapunta. Di naman kasi sapilitan and pagattend, although sometimes,
namimilit na tlaga ako, naiintindihan ko naman kung hindi sila makapunta, pero
please naman INFORM US para di kami mukhang tanga ng paghihintay.

HAAAY I finally got it out, as if naman mababasa nila to
noh! Pero gigil pa rin, kung ganyan lang din eh

sana

nga mapahiya… sila sa talents night. Kaso maapektuhan kasi ung whole
performance dahil sa kapasawayan nila.

Having got that thorn out of my side, I’ve been wanting to
air out that frustration of mine ever since this whole dang application
started, why did I choose this time to apply? Si Lynius kasi eh, wla naman
tlaga akong balak magapply dis sem, pero ito ako, bibo pa daw.

And here’s something funny, bibo daw ako, me moi? And tahimik
ko ngang bata eh (ehem) Pero seriously, may nagtatanong saken bakit di daw ako
batch head, answer ko, kahit andun ako ng election, di ako magiging batch head,
kasi pag di ko pa kakilala ung tao di ko kinakausap. Suplada ako, heheheh di
ako nambabati ng tao kung hindi sya ung unang babati saken. Well dati ganun, I had
to tweak a few screws to get my proud self to smile at people, knowing full
well that there is a slight chance that they won’t recognize me, which is the
real reason behind me not greeting anyone, fear of not being recognized and
looking like a total idiot.

So here I am writing scripts for my group’s performance,
although I already assigned people to write scripts, I’m one of those people
who isn’t satisfied with anything unless I’m the one who does it. I’m just that
kind of person; I’m not satisfied with anybody’s work unless it has a touch o f
my own. Unless of course, that somebody who does it did it better than me, which
is of course not unusual.

I don’t like the lime light either, I’m just happy to work
in the background, sabi nga ni Thet, “Director ka nanaman,” when I told her
about talents night. This is because since high school, director lang tlaga ang
role ko, although there was a time that somebody got me to perform in a play,
it was entitled “Mayday Eve” a short story by nick Joaquin, which is by the way
one of my favorites.

My director syndrome is also probably the reason why every one
thinks me bibo, because I stand up when anyone asks for suggestions, because is
peak up when anyone asks for comments, and that’s just me trying to control the
flow of the story/program, I’m not just going to sit down and let someone else
plan out something that I’m going to work hard for, I’d want to be there when
they’re planning what I’m going to do, and I’m going to make sure that I have a
say in it. Which is why, mrami akong suggestions.

Oh and people say that I’m creative, nooo! I can’t make a
decent creative plate if my life depended on it. Maybe performance wise, I have
a lot of ideas because I’m well informed in those types, I have ideas, that range
from my own, to those I watch on TV, to those I’ve done before and to those I’m
willing to try and do, and since because there are very few opportunities to
try these out, they all get stuck in my brain until someone opens the dam and lets
all of it out; and I seem to have a knack for finding people’s funny bones, I
dunno, ang corny corny ng jokes ko, tawa naman sila ng tawa.

This is all in reaction to a set of questions that was sent
out through text earlier, about first impressions and stuff, somebody said bibo
ako, and matalino (ehem) and mabait (ehem again) and mataray, (ok accepted)
which was really nakakataba ng heart. *sniff I’m so glad I have such great
friends who’d lie just so I’d feel good about myself. Hehehe

Oh well this entry spans 981 words and I think that’s enough
for now. Next whine session is probably after talents night, when I’ll shower
my frustrations yet again about how badly, or greatly it went.

I saw greater love the other day; I prefer calling him that since Keya Cy’s uhm scintillating talk about the topic a few days back. I won’t expound on it, too corny for my trying to be not corny self. Anyways, I’m starting to feel a sense of déjà vu regarding my past few weeks, it seems my insomniac streak from last month is manifesting itself again, and in greater multiples, not that I’m having trouble going to sleep. No! I really love my bed, even if it sometimes make me want to throw it outside, It’s still one of my best friends (note to self: Making friends with an inanimate object isn’t healthy) saw me through thick and thin that bed of mine has, and I do mean thick and thin. Hehehe So I’ve got so much to do I’m utilizing 4/5 of the day to finish all the work I have to do, although the articles that my editor assigned me have all been finished since last week, I still don’t have time for trivial things such as sleep. As I said in my previous posts, I’m applying for an org, and the activities are draining the heck out of me. Plus my tutee is starting to get really difficult, stop me or I might strangle the kid. In addition, the house seems to be extra dirty these days, because of all the mud soaked shoes, and who else to clean the mess but little miss me, who being he youngest in the family is also the resident utusan of everyone. Ugh. Oh well at least they’re not stopping me from joining the org, which right now, I’m starting to really enjoy. I had my Informal interview last week by the way, although there are some answers that I’\d rather take back, I think generally, I did well. By the way the mems asked me to ask five questions, to them at the end of the interview, here is one of those questions, I really like it which is why I’m following it up here. “What theory, thought, statement, anything, would you like proven?” some said stupid things but there was one majority answer, creation. And I thought, yeah, that’s a good thing to prove, or disprove, the story of creation how it all began. Was it really God or was it juts simple science? The truth is I don’t have a stand, I’d want to but I wont want to betray either. Deviating from serious matters, I was looking for a joy in my heart music file and there was this angel who sent it to me, and I don’t even know him. I’d just want to extend him my gratitude before I end this post. I dunno what else to right, half my brain is asleep, so until next tym. Thanks for reading m

It’s a weird thing about the things you hate. Oftentimes, we become that which we most hate. It’s the most common paradox of life. For example have you experienced riding a jeep where there are a few boisterous friends talking nonsense stuff? Doesn’t it just annoy you that they’re so noisy that the driver couldn’t hear the old woman saying "para"? Or that the driver keeps on stopping the vehicle thinking that someone had said para? Yes it is very annoying, especially at times when you just want a peaceful trip. But let me ask you? When you and your friends are the ones who are boisterous, do you really care what the pissed of people in the jeep with you are thinking? No I think not, Id o this thing myself, and I’ve realized this all along, but I still can’t help but be annoyed when a group of friends do this, and can’t help but be so ignorant when me and my friends do it.

See we become what we most hate, although not all the time. Which brings me to my parents, oh how I hate it when my Dad scolds me for the little things, like forgetting to turn of the computer, or forgetting to return his screwdrivers to their rightful places, I use the screwdrivers when I tinker with the electronic stuff around the house, he hates it when he cant find it where he left it, which he usually blames on me, which is almost always true. Hehehe I usually misplace his stuff. Anyways I hate it when he scolds me for this, as if I was a child, and then earlier, when I was teaching my tutee, its his periodical exam this week, I ended up well, scolding the kid for not paying attention, (he’s my cousin though, hehehe, I wouldn’t shout at him if the relationship was professional) Aside from that I scold him for being so makulit.

And then it hit me, I was exactly the same when I was a kid, I was bored with studying, bored with everything that I was assigned to do, and I realize, that I’ve become my MOM and DAD, the exact way in which they scolded me when I was young is the exact way that I scolded my cousin. Ugh.

I’ve tried to be more patient, to be more fun with the kid, and indeed well I think I was a bit more fun studying with than my parents were when I was a child, but Is till can’t help scolding the kid when he goes too out of control, you’ll have to see him when we study, he brings marbles and plays with them while I’m explaining a fact to him, or he brings his toy sword and lashes it out at me and wants to pretend he’s a knight and I’m a crusader. (Ragnarok influence) Although sometimes, I go with him, play a bit, pretend, like I’m reliving my younger days, but sometimes it’s just too much. Now I know what my parents felt when I was too naughty.

Which brings me to a line in Harry Potter Book 6, something about, it’s easier to forgive people for being wrong than for being right. These words were uttered by the character of Albus Dumbledore, and it is right, now that I realize it, I hated it when my parents scolded me then, because I thought it was so unfair, and now that I know that it wasn’t really that unfair, hahaha I hated the scolding even more. Like how the words "In your face" hurt so much.